If this is manic and last week is depressed, I think I can handle my self now.
Maybe this is baseline. I don't know. "I've been down for so damn long/that it feels like up to me...", &c. (Oh, Jim. Why'd you have to leave early?)
In any case
this is a good essay and you should all read it. ---
I continue to be pleasantly surprised by how much I've changed, and what stubborn things have remained the same.
Still not giving up on this world yet.