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this weekend WILL be fun or i'm giving up. hannah is coming in 2 weeks and 1 day but ya know... she'll leave. i need to WANT to get out of the house and do things. lately i've just felt like shutting off to the world. it's easy to dwell in problems and worries and change that's unwanted when you're alone and i guess i just wanna drown in that forever. it's stupid but i don't FEEL like moving on again. moving on is just stupid... kind of like existing w/o living. i need to deal with stuff instead of shutting myself away but it isn't going well. i'm trying to grow up and get into as little drama as possible. if i think somebody has a problem with me or words have been stretched about me to them i talk to them and explain. i don't want to have problems with people. i just want things to be normal for a change... calm. who knows. i'm gonna relax, sleep, watch movies, and eat ice cream. that's it. ahhh... simplicity lol.