Undeniably Frustrated

[atrenchantcoat]

Well, again I write. Today has been an especially pitiful day. I'm very unhappy lately because no matter what, I'm incredibly disappointed. I really try to appreciate the little things, I do ... but, sadly, I am very hard to please. I know, I know, I expect far too much from those around me, my standards are unrealistic. This whole summer, I've been having extreme highs and lows. This happens to be an ultimate low. I had a bit of a mental breather last night, ranting in my journal for hours on end, giving the usual detailed descriptions of everything that had happened. I seem to be regretting a lot as well. I make a lot of very silly decisions, and I'm not always a very kind soul. I was reminiscing again today. Maybe I was happier before? What are my goals in life? Did I ever have any goals? I'm not quite sure. I see my future and it's very straight forward. I'm not sure if I like the looks of it.
I am not motivated enough. I really feel awkward and misunderstood. I know, I know, the typical teenage thing to say - but honestly, I've never felt this frustrated with myself and those around me.

Something nice to look at: