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Okay. My buzz is wearing off. But... Please answer me this:
I've been fucked over quite a lot in my 20 years of life. I... want to have control. Control over my man. No pictures of women. Flashing my man, to a point. Hugging women for a certain amount of time. Yeah, it's that bad. I hate this control that I so desperately seek. But... is this wrong? I understand that a male will be a male, that he ovbiously has interest in women to a certain extent. But how far does that extent reach? How far is too far, that it really does border the title "control"? When should I curb my jealousy and when should I act on it?
My brain hurts.
Um... Basically, I don't want to uh, aggrivate things. I've been told in the past that communication is key. That I need to settle down. But so has the person who told me this, 6+ times over.. no lying.
I did some things tonight too. Well, basically streaking, New Year's, and all. But my man was involved in that too.. it was something that we shared. I don't go anywhere near overboard, is what I'm trying to say. I don't hit on males, I don't take seductive pictures of males, I don't do shit with males that I'm not with, in respect to past situations with past males that I have wronged, to some degree. Uhh.. shit, I'm so tired.
Perhaps my dribble only makes sense to me, but I hope that at least one of you can provide some insight. I appreciate this.. thank you.
Happy and safe New Year, Livejournal friends.
I've been fucked over quite a lot in my 20 years of life. I... want to have control. Control over my man. No pictures of women. Flashing my man, to a point. Hugging women for a certain amount of time. Yeah, it's that bad. I hate this control that I so desperately seek. But... is this wrong? I understand that a male will be a male, that he ovbiously has interest in women to a certain extent. But how far does that extent reach? How far is too far, that it really does border the title "control"? When should I curb my jealousy and when should I act on it?
My brain hurts.
Um... Basically, I don't want to uh, aggrivate things. I've been told in the past that communication is key. That I need to settle down. But so has the person who told me this, 6+ times over.. no lying.
I did some things tonight too. Well, basically streaking, New Year's, and all. But my man was involved in that too.. it was something that we shared. I don't go anywhere near overboard, is what I'm trying to say. I don't hit on males, I don't take seductive pictures of males, I don't do shit with males that I'm not with, in respect to past situations with past males that I have wronged, to some degree. Uhh.. shit, I'm so tired.
Perhaps my dribble only makes sense to me, but I hope that at least one of you can provide some insight. I appreciate this.. thank you.
Happy and safe New Year, Livejournal friends.