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The other day ... that curse, it was meant for us to admit something, something good, wasn't it? It figures that I wouldn't be hit, but I think there might be a reason. Some people were surprising in what they were able to bring out. And if they were surprising, I guess it would make sense that I am, as well. It just didn't take. In a way, I wish it had-it would be a different kind of awakening. You wake up the next day, and you find yourself looking at that. It means that there's something.
It also makes it easier. And it might make it easier to feel pressured, forced to see the good things, instead of the bad. It might mean that you don't entirely agree.
And ... well, I think that's not the way I'd want this to be.
So ... hey, I'll try it. No curse. After some things that happened last month, I need to do this. Without Cordelia's coaxing.
Almost everyone I miss is here. Or have missed or wanted to see or ... even, here, I've had a chance to apologize a few times. I have Buffy, who set me on a path I needed, and Cordelia, who's seen me stray from it but has never given up. I have Wesley, and I guess the two of us ... we've been through hard times. And we have Fred, who's always been a light. There's Willow, who's never failed to help us, and everyone else from Sunnydale-yeah, even Xander. Though I guess he wouldn't want this ... shout out. Shout out. That is what this is, right? And coming from me.
It's not everyone. But back home, I've made some mistakes. I've not had the chance to ... really embrace all that I've had, and in many ways, I've lost everyone I've listed. Either they've moved on or ... they've really moved on. This place, for all its failings, gives us a chance to be together. That's what's important to me.
Of course, there's everyone here, too. At least, the good people. X-Factor. Ruby. Shahrazad. ... And some I've only talked to once or twice. And some I've listed, they wouldn't want to be there, but this is a good thing.
Somehow ... I think this would be less cheesy if I did this while cursed. But there would probably be lots of exclamation points, huh?
filter to angel investigations | unhackable
While I'm here ...
Would you guys be willing to join me in the mansion? Permanently? Without the tigers, it gets a little lonely sometimes. I've wanted to ask, but ... you know.
We can move the curtains over, Cordy.
[ooc: filter is to Angel crew. o/]
It also makes it easier. And it might make it easier to feel pressured, forced to see the good things, instead of the bad. It might mean that you don't entirely agree.
And ... well, I think that's not the way I'd want this to be.
So ... hey, I'll try it. No curse. After some things that happened last month, I need to do this. Without Cordelia's coaxing.
Almost everyone I miss is here. Or have missed or wanted to see or ... even, here, I've had a chance to apologize a few times. I have Buffy, who set me on a path I needed, and Cordelia, who's seen me stray from it but has never given up. I have Wesley, and I guess the two of us ... we've been through hard times. And we have Fred, who's always been a light. There's Willow, who's never failed to help us, and everyone else from Sunnydale-yeah, even Xander. Though I guess he wouldn't want this ... shout out. Shout out. That is what this is, right? And coming from me.
It's not everyone. But back home, I've made some mistakes. I've not had the chance to ... really embrace all that I've had, and in many ways, I've lost everyone I've listed. Either they've moved on or ... they've really moved on. This place, for all its failings, gives us a chance to be together. That's what's important to me.
Of course, there's everyone here, too. At least, the good people. X-Factor. Ruby. Shahrazad. ... And some I've only talked to once or twice. And some I've listed, they wouldn't want to be there, but this is a good thing.
Somehow ... I think this would be less cheesy if I did this while cursed. But there would probably be lots of exclamation points, huh?
filter to angel investigations | unhackable
While I'm here ...
Would you guys be willing to join me in the mansion? Permanently? Without the tigers, it gets a little lonely sometimes. I've wanted to ask, but ... you know.
We can move the curtains over, Cordy.
[ooc: filter is to Angel crew. o/]