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i've decided to go on effexor again, temporarily. hopefully removing any
edges, and bumps that seem to be irritating my core stability. :P
okay, so it was kind of impromptu. and today is the first dyay that i am
back on it.. but i think .. as a temporarly solution it's probably a good
idea. i don't know how long i'm going to go on it..
although i've been trying to direct myself towards stability the path is
long and tedious, and i keep slipping off. so hopefully, it'll help me be
a little erratic, but in functional ways that will help me get back on
track.
it's funny really how things are starting to go back into line with my
inner direction, and yet now i want to change things. but i am starting
to feel a rather disturbing slipping sensation as i watch things slip out
of place..
and thus when i have a more stable path i can remove impedements such as
strange pills that dull me out.
okay,
so maybe it'll go nowhere. :))
but hey,
i feel good today.. first day i had it
well,
also there's the little issue about how unstable i've been feeling recently.
mind you maybe it's just cos i've been so slow..
lah lah lah. towards space! towards fun. towards anything but the dull
inner feeling of lipid saturation.