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I went to the doctors today... She said she thinks I have a biological disorder and she wants me to take some blood tests, then when I go for my physical in 2 weeks, she wants to talk anti-depressants and therapy. I told her everything, some of this stuff my friends don't even know... how I hear things, have boughts of really strong paranoia, have nervous attacks, start shaking, haven't been eating, I've been cutting again... and I just zone out, and I don't remember what caused it. Mom came home and asked me what I was doing... I was just sitting at the table staring at something for like.... 10 minutes.
I was at Centre High today, I hate it there, it's not Vic... I don't feel welcome and the people there make me uneasy. I feel unimportant, I don't matter as a person, I'm only a student. It's not Vic. I had another shaking attack when I was filling out the registration and I tried so hard to hold it in.
I'm cold. I'm wearing two pairs of socks again and I can't feel my toes.
I was at Centre High today, I hate it there, it's not Vic... I don't feel welcome and the people there make me uneasy. I feel unimportant, I don't matter as a person, I'm only a student. It's not Vic. I had another shaking attack when I was filling out the registration and I tried so hard to hold it in.
I'm cold. I'm wearing two pairs of socks again and I can't feel my toes.