Oye Vey..
So the last time I wrote in here was quite a while ago...A lot has happened since then...
First things first, my grandma passed away this last weekend..Saturday night...It had been a long time suffering..and well, that's about the only thought that comforts me at times like these..I went to see her Saturday morning, and she was basically sitting there...almost lifeless already...But, she opened her eyes and stared at me for the longest time......(in her last days, she rarely opened her eyes)..I just sat by her bedside, caressing her..and telling her that I love her...It was the hardest thing..I wanted to bring up old memories, but every time I would think about it..I'd get tears in my eyes..It was so hard for me..and the rest of the family, too....Well, her visitation is wednesday night from 5-7 and her funeral is thursday at 11 at Deiters Funeral Home..Things start tomorrow....I can't even imagine what it's going to be like..to tell you the truth, I'm a little scared of it all..
Everyone has been soo great about it though...Ryn was there when I found out on Saturday night and he just hugged me forever..and let me get his shoulder soaking wet from crying on it so much..He's the best thing that has ever happened to me..Ryn and his family brought us a ton of food, and Kai made me an orange chocolate pie....the muellers also brought us a lot of food..Kai's willing to sing at the funeral..which is amazingly nice..and my other friends have just been there to comfort me..whether it be through a hug, a card (cait and brooke, you guys rock.. :) ), or them coming to the ceremonies this week (thanks jq and matt)..thanks so much, you all mean so much to me...I don't know what I'd do without you guys.
Well, I have a piano lesson today..so I'm going to go practice for it...have a nice week, everybody..
and pray for my grandma and all of the family..
First things first, my grandma passed away this last weekend..Saturday night...It had been a long time suffering..and well, that's about the only thought that comforts me at times like these..I went to see her Saturday morning, and she was basically sitting there...almost lifeless already...But, she opened her eyes and stared at me for the longest time......(in her last days, she rarely opened her eyes)..I just sat by her bedside, caressing her..and telling her that I love her...It was the hardest thing..I wanted to bring up old memories, but every time I would think about it..I'd get tears in my eyes..It was so hard for me..and the rest of the family, too....Well, her visitation is wednesday night from 5-7 and her funeral is thursday at 11 at Deiters Funeral Home..Things start tomorrow....I can't even imagine what it's going to be like..to tell you the truth, I'm a little scared of it all..
Everyone has been soo great about it though...Ryn was there when I found out on Saturday night and he just hugged me forever..and let me get his shoulder soaking wet from crying on it so much..He's the best thing that has ever happened to me..Ryn and his family brought us a ton of food, and Kai made me an orange chocolate pie....the muellers also brought us a lot of food..Kai's willing to sing at the funeral..which is amazingly nice..and my other friends have just been there to comfort me..whether it be through a hug, a card (cait and brooke, you guys rock.. :) ), or them coming to the ceremonies this week (thanks jq and matt)..thanks so much, you all mean so much to me...I don't know what I'd do without you guys.
Well, I have a piano lesson today..so I'm going to go practice for it...have a nice week, everybody..
and pray for my grandma and all of the family..