Bitter Sweet
I've been pretty sick the past couple of days . . .an ugly flu, and now it's pretty light. It's kind of lame that like . . . no one called, except shannon last nite, but i dunno . . . I guess I don't always call my friends when they are sick.
I've been feeling pretty left out in general from my group of friends. While we were working on our Yearbook page, I couldn't help feeling kind of like an outsider . . .like I didn't really belong. The truth is, I haven't hung out with Aimee in like a month, and same with Kati except on her birthday . . .I haven't really hung out with Brande that much, nonetheless Imani, and not really Shannon either. And I didn't even talk to Nick this weekend . . .but I said a long time ago, that if he really cares that much about our friendship, then he'd try harder. I mean, I'm going to college next year, I'll meet dozens of people, but he'll be here with the same people, and I'll be missing, so . . .I dunno. Which brings me to wonder . . .who have I really been hanging out with?!?!
This weekend I spent some time with Christina and Andrew and Lauren G . . . not so much Christina and Lauren, cuz they had to leave, but it's tight not seeing the same faces ALL the time . . plus, me and Christina used to kick it and it was fun as hell. It's lame how in high school, it doesn't seem like you have time for other people but your clone knit friends, cuz it's not REALLY like that . . . we ALWAYS have time.
On a positive note, I absolutely ADORE the pool staff. Kickin' it with them this weekend was hands down the most fun time I've had this entire school year. And it's real tight, cuz there aren't any freshman, sophmore, junior, senior bull-shit . . .everyone just CHILLS!!!!!! I love how I'm getting closer to the staff, and getting to meet newer people. In all honesty, I think that's who I've been hanging out with since my friends kind of left me out of the door. I'm just really excited for what the last 90 days or so of senior year have to offer, and what this summer has to offer.
Good news: Making a lot of new friends.
Bad news: I'm really scared about this AP Lit Research Paper . . .i can't find any critical commentary.
I've been feeling pretty left out in general from my group of friends. While we were working on our Yearbook page, I couldn't help feeling kind of like an outsider . . .like I didn't really belong. The truth is, I haven't hung out with Aimee in like a month, and same with Kati except on her birthday . . .I haven't really hung out with Brande that much, nonetheless Imani, and not really Shannon either. And I didn't even talk to Nick this weekend . . .but I said a long time ago, that if he really cares that much about our friendship, then he'd try harder. I mean, I'm going to college next year, I'll meet dozens of people, but he'll be here with the same people, and I'll be missing, so . . .I dunno. Which brings me to wonder . . .who have I really been hanging out with?!?!
This weekend I spent some time with Christina and Andrew and Lauren G . . . not so much Christina and Lauren, cuz they had to leave, but it's tight not seeing the same faces ALL the time . . plus, me and Christina used to kick it and it was fun as hell. It's lame how in high school, it doesn't seem like you have time for other people but your clone knit friends, cuz it's not REALLY like that . . . we ALWAYS have time.
On a positive note, I absolutely ADORE the pool staff. Kickin' it with them this weekend was hands down the most fun time I've had this entire school year. And it's real tight, cuz there aren't any freshman, sophmore, junior, senior bull-shit . . .everyone just CHILLS!!!!!! I love how I'm getting closer to the staff, and getting to meet newer people. In all honesty, I think that's who I've been hanging out with since my friends kind of left me out of the door. I'm just really excited for what the last 90 days or so of senior year have to offer, and what this summer has to offer.
Good news: Making a lot of new friends.
Bad news: I'm really scared about this AP Lit Research Paper . . .i can't find any critical commentary.