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Once more it's been too long since a proper update.
I have mostly been feeling very lonely and depressed.
I am, mostly, off the Quetiapine now. Why 'mostly' ? Because either I've just hit another round of insomnia anyway, or my body had grown used to the sedative effect of the medication and 'misses' it. Either way I've occasionally taken one just so I can damned well get to sleep.
Today I actually got out of the flat. I posted an item of mail to my landlord's parents for her, then went into Fleet proper to exchange library books, pick up contact lenses (30 pairs, they'll probably last me a year at the current rate, if not more), and do a little grocery shopping.
I really wanted to get some Schwartz 'Mediterranean Roasted Vegetables' sachets, having forgotten to make them part of my Sainsbury's order earlier in the week. I looked all around Morrisons and failed to spot any, so went to check the Somerfields... which it turns out is now closed. So back to the Morrisons for another quick look, still failing to spot them, although finding similar things, and then just buying pizzas (it took me a while to realise that they were using Italian... and thus 'Pollo' meant chicken was involved).
What I should really be doing is planning more social stuff in London, but most of the things I hear about tend to start in late evening and then there's the whole having to be at Waterloo by 23:45 latest to get home and it doesn't seem worth it for all of 3 or 4 hours with people :/. I also know I won't enjoy the last bit of a Saturday night out if I just take the Slimelight option. 99% of people I know will have left by 03h at the latest leaving me with 4+ hours to kill before being able to get home.
I start the group therapy on the 9th September. We'll see what comes of that, but I can't help but think I'll then be seeing what I can do about moving back to London. That is, of course, fraught with all sorts of difficulties, not least finding a landlord that doesn't run away when Housing Benefit is mentioned.
I have mostly been feeling very lonely and depressed.
I am, mostly, off the Quetiapine now. Why 'mostly' ? Because either I've just hit another round of insomnia anyway, or my body had grown used to the sedative effect of the medication and 'misses' it. Either way I've occasionally taken one just so I can damned well get to sleep.
Today I actually got out of the flat. I posted an item of mail to my landlord's parents for her, then went into Fleet proper to exchange library books, pick up contact lenses (30 pairs, they'll probably last me a year at the current rate, if not more), and do a little grocery shopping.
I really wanted to get some Schwartz 'Mediterranean Roasted Vegetables' sachets, having forgotten to make them part of my Sainsbury's order earlier in the week. I looked all around Morrisons and failed to spot any, so went to check the Somerfields... which it turns out is now closed. So back to the Morrisons for another quick look, still failing to spot them, although finding similar things, and then just buying pizzas (it took me a while to realise that they were using Italian... and thus 'Pollo' meant chicken was involved).
What I should really be doing is planning more social stuff in London, but most of the things I hear about tend to start in late evening and then there's the whole having to be at Waterloo by 23:45 latest to get home and it doesn't seem worth it for all of 3 or 4 hours with people :/. I also know I won't enjoy the last bit of a Saturday night out if I just take the Slimelight option. 99% of people I know will have left by 03h at the latest leaving me with 4+ hours to kill before being able to get home.
I start the group therapy on the 9th September. We'll see what comes of that, but I can't help but think I'll then be seeing what I can do about moving back to London. That is, of course, fraught with all sorts of difficulties, not least finding a landlord that doesn't run away when Housing Benefit is mentioned.