New drugs
That's what came out of my appointment with the psychiatrist today. Not an SSRI this time, something entirely different. Unfortunately, due to his rather thick accent (of the indian/pakistani variety) I didn't quite catch what it was he's prescribing me. He'll be faxing that to my GP and I'll pick up the prescription tomorrow, then do some research on the internet about it. Something along anxiolytic lines maybe. Whatever it is I'll certainly give it a go.
Of course I was quite correct that 'Conifers CMHT' is an utter ball-ache to get to. 15-20 minute walk this end, bus ride, following where we are on the map so as to get off at a vaguely sensible point, plus another 15-20 minute walk. That's the bus (73S) that arrives at a vaguely sensible time for XX:30 appointments. If I have a XX:00 appointment then there's a much more sensible bus that stops nearer (the 73W).
It's good that this psychiatrist (a minion again, not the actual consultant) is trying something new. I've stated many times that SSRIs do nothing for me and I'm willing to try any other class of drugs if offered. But on the other hand he was pushing hard for me to do some self-help CBT thing, or a group therapy thing. I know neither work well with my warped psyche (it rebels against doing the self-help thing due to fear of failure, and group therapy, HELLO that's a social situation, and that's what I have problems with!). It sounds like next to no chance of me getting one-on-one CBT.
So, that means that come April I decide if I use my savings for something else (new computer if I'm still enough into WoW or another game at that point... or a vasectomy) or start seriously saving and looking to move back to London.
I'm still lonely as hell here in Fleet, and my recent emo-ness has only made this worse with not really interacting with anyone online either. I need to snap out of that somehow, but the deeper the hole I'm in the harder it is to climb out of it. And of course *now* is the worst time of the year to want to do things at random with people, 'cos you all no doubt have Xmas (related) plans already.
Of course I was quite correct that 'Conifers CMHT' is an utter ball-ache to get to. 15-20 minute walk this end, bus ride, following where we are on the map so as to get off at a vaguely sensible point, plus another 15-20 minute walk. That's the bus (73S) that arrives at a vaguely sensible time for XX:30 appointments. If I have a XX:00 appointment then there's a much more sensible bus that stops nearer (the 73W).
It's good that this psychiatrist (a minion again, not the actual consultant) is trying something new. I've stated many times that SSRIs do nothing for me and I'm willing to try any other class of drugs if offered. But on the other hand he was pushing hard for me to do some self-help CBT thing, or a group therapy thing. I know neither work well with my warped psyche (it rebels against doing the self-help thing due to fear of failure, and group therapy, HELLO that's a social situation, and that's what I have problems with!). It sounds like next to no chance of me getting one-on-one CBT.
So, that means that come April I decide if I use my savings for something else (new computer if I'm still enough into WoW or another game at that point... or a vasectomy) or start seriously saving and looking to move back to London.
I'm still lonely as hell here in Fleet, and my recent emo-ness has only made this worse with not really interacting with anyone online either. I need to snap out of that somehow, but the deeper the hole I'm in the harder it is to climb out of it. And of course *now* is the worst time of the year to want to do things at random with people, 'cos you all no doubt have Xmas (related) plans already.