Lift Me Up

[athame16]

My friend Benny recently posted this video on Facebook. It has been making me think. I keep going back to it and playing it over and over again. I keep asking myself if I can be the person in the song. I can relate to it so much right now, but am terrified that I cannot be lifted up. I need some help, but I don't know where to go.

I give in for the night. I have been avoiding sleep. Avoiding the confines of my bed and company. I so just want to be alone. To be able to just simply cry myself to sleep. That is never possible. Nothing I truly want is ever possible. Nor am I ever able to say fuck it and just do what I want.

I have let myself become too beaten and let myself be destroyed. Can I be saved? Can the life be restored in me? Too many questions. All of which I know I shall dwell on in my sleep. Here is to hoping for change. I shall leave you with the lyrics that are haunting me.

Five Finger Death Punch
"Lift Me Up"

It ain't no mystery
I'm all I have left
I'm pushing back running you over

I've been thrown down,
Run around
Beaten 'til I hit the ground
I'm telling you right now that it's over

There's no room for mistakes
All the parts are in place
Say what you will but say it to my face

Better back the fuck up
Better shut the fuck up
I'll do what I want
And I'll never give up

I won't be broken
I won't be tortured
I won't be beaten down

I have the answer
I can take the pressure
I will turn it all around

Lift me up above this
The flames and the ashes
Lift me up and help me to fly away

Lift me up above this
The broken, the empty
Lift me up and help me to fly away

I'm gonna change history
Enlighten the world
Teach 'em how to see through my eyes
I'm gonna lash back check that fate as a heart attack
Stomp out all the ugliest lies

You can't convince me to change
We ain't on the same page
I've had my fill
There's nothing but rage

Best get out of my way 'cause there's nothing to say
Is that all you got because I ain't got all day

I won't be broken
I won't be tortured
I won't be beaten down

I have the answer
I can take the pressure
I will turn it all around

Lift me up above this
The flames and the ashes
Lift me up and help me to fly away

Lift me up above this
The broken, the empty
Lift me up and help me to fly away

I won't be broken
I won't be tortured
I won't be beaten down

I have the answer
I can take the pressure
I will turn it all around

Lift me up above this
The flames and the ashes
Lift me up and help me to fly away

Lift me up above this
The broken, the empty
Lift me up and help me to fly away

Lift me up to fly away
Lift me up to fly away
Lift me up