"but i know your skin is still as thin as mine"

[atenderhooligan]

can you tell me where I fit into your life? You told me i'm always in the back of your mind...will you push me to the front? ohh dont i seem so secure well I'll give you my nerves for your consience. who's been helping you to sleep my dear? said you think of me always, close your eyes...what do you see? holding my breath, eyes squeezed tight- do you see the water rushing over my face invading my nose, seeing into my eyes and slipping into the cracks of my mouth?..I feel it rushing to fill my ears and defening. I dont want to hear your voice anymore. No not today. I dont want to hear the awkward silence.. not today

"I've been worn away by memories and galeries and pictures of you in my head when i'm away, maybe we could make the space to talk about it..forget about it for now..it seems too hard to do"

im sorry i still haven't changed