i feel very happy
CHARACTERS: suile_madrin & twinklefluff
LOCATION: » 001 » 011
WARNINGS: N/A will update if any appear
SUMMARY: It's empty and it's lonely and it's cold.
She's not crying about it. She really isn't, or at least not where anyone can see her, because she knew for a fact that tears were as contagious as yawns or smiles. It was her job to keep up a happy face, to smile and laugh and bring people lunch. Her job to soak up all their anxiety and loneliness like she was oblivious to it. It's really only unbearable when she's alone. When she doesn't have anyone around to crack jokes at, to see their smiles and bask in their brief little sparks of delight.
It's worst when she's meant to be sleeping. When she's alone in her bunk, and all across the ship there are other people alone in their bunks: thinking, worrying, wondering, crying. And it makes her cry too. Makes her feel like there's a knot in her chest, a hammer pounding away at her skull.
She's done her best. It's been more than a week without Regina, without Melisent and Cherita. She's never been away from them for more than a week before, it's lonely. It hurts. So she scrubs off the night's tears, splashes some water on her face, and goes to find the only person who will really understand.