Mar 24, 2006 10:27
Life continues to be good, mostly with small peaks and valleys in the days, and not these gigantic swells and drop offs that it seemed to be filled with before then. This is good.
I am getting better at communicating, and it's been incredibly helpful. Not that I think I was bad at it really, just that I let stuff kinda fester inside and reach this infected pus filled exploding point. hahahaha that is disgusting. Anyways yeah, now I'm trying to deal with it before it reaches that point, at least in relationship area (which is pretty much the only place I had problems with it) and while I'm not the best I do feel like I've made decent progress.
Evidence continues to point to my making the correct decision hah, and for that i am happy.
Right now school has me the most stressed out, mostly because i'm coming off of spring break. I'm doing well, but I need to do REALLY well. And I have papers and tests coming up and it's just starting to pile up, but hopefully I'll deal with most of it in the beginning of the weekend, so I don't have to stress about it later on.
I'm still trying to write, but it feels like there this big block in my head, and its not letting the words come out right. so yeah.. I'm always critical of what i do write, and while I do think most of it is blah, I think I occasionally write something nice, but lately I just want to throw the paper it is on in the trash.. frustration.
Need to start talking/learning about T shirt biz.
Applying for jobs that have a decent pay range is a pain, but I'm trying and it needs to happen. By decent i mean able to functionally self sustain.
I think I've put this stuff off for way too long... I've entered the second trimester of adult life, and i'm disappointed in myself.. mmmm third life crisis, you feel soooo good.
Snow Patrol has reinvaded my brain.. blah.
going back over this, it sounds overly dramatic, and it is heh.
for all these "problems" I can't say life isn't good. I'm just looking for things to complain about. and really they are few and far between
Anyways,
Have an amazing and wonderful day,
Have fun and be save,
Much love,
Jon