So it's been awhile
Well I am alive heh to start off, i've just been struggling to find the time to update on here, and I would like to say my life is hectic (and sometimes it feels like it is) but really I've got entirely too much unproductive time that could be put to better use (which I am attempting to do as a matter of fact).
Jon is not perfect, who woulda thunk. hahahaha.
So school is going alright, life is going okay, and i'm trying to find better jobs, and just better things to do with my time.
For Lent I decided to try and start working out, and i've been doing a good job holding myself to it. I figure if i can keep it up for 40 days then it might actually grow into a more long term habit, which would be nice. Bascially I've given up one form of masturbation for another heh. something like that.
Spring break was good, and I went to Georgia and Florida, and came back slightly browner, more than likely a little bit fatter from my grammies cooking, and i think a bit more aware of how i feel about things in general so that was good.
If you have love, you can't just smoosh it. as I've said. So, I'm kinda opening myself up a bit and trying to let some barricades down. It's foolish to think you can control your emotions in any real sense, they take you where they will, and maybe you can manipulate them some, but you can't stop them. And thats the basic idea that i came to anyways.
It hurts more to try and stop yourself from feeling, and it almost is an insult to the feeling to not let it take it's course. So for better or for worse I guess I kinda set sail and threw caution to the wind. Things will settle themselves how they may, and though I'm sure I still try and put my own spin on things I'm doing it with less reservation and control. I'm sure wherever I end up at is where I'm supposed to be. And so far, I'm definitely happier for it, so yay for Jon.
I had wierd dreams in Georgia, about beautiful children with coffee and cream skin and freckles, and running around outside with them, and about being a good dad someday. I only hope they are right. Not right now of course hah, but just right.
I also read Haunted and it was pretty good, and i did try to funk around with some of the ten words I saw batted around, but i haven't finished anything yet, so maybe I'll be bale to post something soon.
Anyways, yeah that's a really short summary of the past couple of months/weeks, but I feel like I'm rambling now so I'll just. stop. typing.
Hope everyone is happy and doing well,
much love,
Jon
Jon is not perfect, who woulda thunk. hahahaha.
So school is going alright, life is going okay, and i'm trying to find better jobs, and just better things to do with my time.
For Lent I decided to try and start working out, and i've been doing a good job holding myself to it. I figure if i can keep it up for 40 days then it might actually grow into a more long term habit, which would be nice. Bascially I've given up one form of masturbation for another heh. something like that.
Spring break was good, and I went to Georgia and Florida, and came back slightly browner, more than likely a little bit fatter from my grammies cooking, and i think a bit more aware of how i feel about things in general so that was good.
If you have love, you can't just smoosh it. as I've said. So, I'm kinda opening myself up a bit and trying to let some barricades down. It's foolish to think you can control your emotions in any real sense, they take you where they will, and maybe you can manipulate them some, but you can't stop them. And thats the basic idea that i came to anyways.
It hurts more to try and stop yourself from feeling, and it almost is an insult to the feeling to not let it take it's course. So for better or for worse I guess I kinda set sail and threw caution to the wind. Things will settle themselves how they may, and though I'm sure I still try and put my own spin on things I'm doing it with less reservation and control. I'm sure wherever I end up at is where I'm supposed to be. And so far, I'm definitely happier for it, so yay for Jon.
I had wierd dreams in Georgia, about beautiful children with coffee and cream skin and freckles, and running around outside with them, and about being a good dad someday. I only hope they are right. Not right now of course hah, but just right.
I also read Haunted and it was pretty good, and i did try to funk around with some of the ten words I saw batted around, but i haven't finished anything yet, so maybe I'll be bale to post something soon.
Anyways, yeah that's a really short summary of the past couple of months/weeks, but I feel like I'm rambling now so I'll just. stop. typing.
Hope everyone is happy and doing well,
much love,
Jon