The Story

[astral_paradox]

Yeah, long story short:

I thought my girlfriend and I were done, but now I'm not sure. She seems to have revitalized her interest in me, probably due to being done teaching for the year, but I can't decide whether or not to reinvest in our relationship.

Thanks for reading the monster of a ramble I typed out before.

Comments

[memeworrywort]

Ouch man. It sounds like a messy situation.

One thing I can tell you is my idea of how a relationship should work: Both partners can rely on each other, but they can't rely solely on each other. Basically, if one is more needy than the other, it wouldn't work out in the end. A relationship needs to be a mutual pact - you have to weigh the fairness of each action as if you were judging the law. You can't tip the scales because you feel a certain way; you need to be objective (as hard as that sounds).

I know you have feelings for Tracey, but it seems like she can't appreciate you for who you are. By not allowing you to have a drawer in her apartment, she basically allowed you to move out of her life. That's not what you do to people you love - it sets a bad precedent for future actions: it's like an eerie foreshadowing of what could happen if you persist in talking to this person. Just a sample, per se.

Lastly, you underestimate yourself. You seem to think that love is guiding you everywhere you go. You are guiding yourself. Only you can make the decisions that will keep your heart and mind clean. Don't damage yourself intentionally if you know you can avoid it. Cliché or not, a beautiful girl can turn your world to dust, but not unless you let her. You have more power than you're exercising.

Also, sorry for overanalyzing your post, but if you feel it's unwarranted, I could stop making suggestions.

[astral_paradox]

Hey thanks for the over-analyzing.

You definitely added a few new ways to think about how I go about my life.

Also, I really don't give Trace enough credit or explain her situation well enough. She is a non contracted elementary teacher, meaning she isn't guaranteed a job the next year and is always under a magnifying glass. 2nd straight year of her not getting a contract in the same school district.

Its really a lot of pressure. She seems to cycle in and out of depression spells based on teaching, and it seems as though shes coming out of this one. What was different about this year was the whole moving-in-ish situation.

[memeworrywort]

You're welcome.