.. because I'm sitting here... and my fingers are bored... and my mind is racing...
Today was another day..... it's becoming mundane. Life. Pfft.
I'm kicking myself over and over and over for not having said something sooner. Now D is missing and I can't help but blame myself. God, I miss him so much. It's been a week now.. he's not been home.. and I was the last person to talk to him. Saturday. It's been four days with no contact at all. Four. I just want to know he's alive. I have always, since we became close, had a close connection to him. I... I don't have a good feeling. I'm sick about it. I can hardly sleep.... and that's been the past five nights.
Beyond worrying and praying about that, I'm going about the typical motions. Taking Andrew to school.. breakfast at the ever-amazing Mr. D's.. reading and writing.. picking Andrew up from school.. job-hunting.. breathing.. rinse and repeat. I've not had much heart in anything for a while now. I... still don't have my heart back.. so.. I can't quite PUT it into anything; now, can I? Heh.
The world's still spinning, however. Go world. So... that's always good, right? Puts things into perspective... or something...
((I love you, you loud-mouthed, vulgar, jackass of a man. Eff.))
I'm kicking myself over and over and over for not having said something sooner. Now D is missing and I can't help but blame myself. God, I miss him so much. It's been a week now.. he's not been home.. and I was the last person to talk to him. Saturday. It's been four days with no contact at all. Four. I just want to know he's alive. I have always, since we became close, had a close connection to him. I... I don't have a good feeling. I'm sick about it. I can hardly sleep.... and that's been the past five nights.
Beyond worrying and praying about that, I'm going about the typical motions. Taking Andrew to school.. breakfast at the ever-amazing Mr. D's.. reading and writing.. picking Andrew up from school.. job-hunting.. breathing.. rinse and repeat. I've not had much heart in anything for a while now. I... still don't have my heart back.. so.. I can't quite PUT it into anything; now, can I? Heh.
The world's still spinning, however. Go world. So... that's always good, right? Puts things into perspective... or something...
((I love you, you loud-mouthed, vulgar, jackass of a man. Eff.))