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I'm really sad.
I can't... or won't, rather... elaborate. Not that I expect anyone to truly "care" one way or another.
But, I'm really really sad. I hate this. I don't even have the words. Right now all I want to do is curl up next to one of the few people who knows me without speech.. and cry. I don't understand why-- But, I do. Your heart can't be tamed, right? Ugh. Dego. The emptiness grows with every tear that falls uncaught by loving fingertips and every sob that goes unheard. I don't want to shut down, again. Please, God.. let me heart cries be heard. Bring me peace. I'll pray a prayer I prayed many years ago.... "give me purpose... take my pain".. and I got the answer-- "There is purpose in your pain." Remind me. I feel so alone...
(I love you, you stubborn, selfish, beautiful man..)
I can't... or won't, rather... elaborate. Not that I expect anyone to truly "care" one way or another.
But, I'm really really sad. I hate this. I don't even have the words. Right now all I want to do is curl up next to one of the few people who knows me without speech.. and cry. I don't understand why-- But, I do. Your heart can't be tamed, right? Ugh. Dego. The emptiness grows with every tear that falls uncaught by loving fingertips and every sob that goes unheard. I don't want to shut down, again. Please, God.. let me heart cries be heard. Bring me peace. I'll pray a prayer I prayed many years ago.... "give me purpose... take my pain".. and I got the answer-- "There is purpose in your pain." Remind me. I feel so alone...
(I love you, you stubborn, selfish, beautiful man..)