Blog : The edge of greatness

[astemus]

Do you ever think that you're on the edge of something great?  I think about the things that I enjoy doing, and it's never really the same day to day.  I seem to excel in things where other people may take some time to learn and understand.  It's like I am a jack of all trades, but a master of none.  I experiment with something, I try something new

Comments

[jiroe]

Yet again, you're posing questions only you can answer. But I see now that my predictions of Northeastern Illinois being the black hole of determination is wrong. It sounds like no matter where we go or what we do, we're bound to lose interest in it and come back to the same old shit.

Your entry sounds vaguely familiar, as I've traveled down that synaptic road in my own mind more than once. Hence the sudden interest in writing screenplays. However I'm not impervious to the lack of perseverance. I've started about 5 screenplays and that's 5 more than I've finished. I've brought one farther than I thought I would, but I just can't bring myself to finish it, partly because I'm unsure where I want to take it, but also because I've got so many distractions. Lately, I've been having dreams that feel like I'm watching a movie and they are actually interesting. I just need the swift kick in the ass to get moving on it. I've also been thinking of joining a band because I've never done it and I've always wanted to be in one, even as a little kid. But something is stopping me and I don't know what or why.

Maybe that's just a part of growing up: having to give up your dreams and give in to the demands of life.