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I had an interesting time in Lynchburg.
I talked to some friends... spent a little time with Dr. Hugo in his office.
And I have decided that I am going back to LU. Whatever it takes.
I think I'll try to get an on-campus job... if I work for admissions or recruting full-time, they'll pay for my tuition plus around 20K/yr. I'm going to do everything in my power to finish out school there. I will make this my goal, my obsession. I will be headstrong about this until I finish it. No more whining and complaining. Time to grow up and live life. I'm ready to do it. I feel empowered. I'm gonna fall flat on my face at some point, and be discouraged at other times, but that's when I need to read this and realize that people believe in me, that God is strong enough to handle this task, and that I am loved and supported. That's all I need to know. I am a young, vibrant, talented young lady with a decent support system of friends who encourage me from different angles (Dr. Hugo, Justin, Hilary, Lynda, and Rachel Q. are the ones I saw this week, plus Carrie and Dan over the weekend) and a lot of potential, not ot mention a Father who wants to see me succeed and help me make it happen. This is going to happen. This WILL happen. Say it like a mantra, like "Somewhere in Time": you WILL make this happen, your mind accepts this absolutely.
As Doc said this week: Music is something that I must do, or I will die. It is my passion and my reason for living. God is not enough of a reason to stay alive. Let's face it: if God were my reason for living, I'd kill myself, because I'd rather be in Heaven where I am closer to Him! Instead, it's His purpose that sustains me, that purpose being the passion I have for music and the desire to contribute to the world by helping to incorperate music into people's daily lives. I WILL do this. And God will sustain me in doing it.
I looked up the MW definition of a conductor. I liked two of them, apart from "the leader of a musical ensemble". This is interesting:
con·duc·tor (k&n-'d&k-t&r)
(1) : a material or object that permits an electric current to flow easily
(2) : a material capable of transmitting another form of energy (as heat or sound)
That's me. As Hugo said, I have the emotional part of conducting down, I am able to convey a concept to others in order to make them understand what I want to hear in response. That's something, he said, that most conductors have difficulty with. When I asked him about the technical ("Musical") side and what happens when I'm not proficiant at that, he beat his hand softly in the air and asked, "Can you conduct a 4-pattern?" I mimicked his actions and answered, "Yes." He smiled, changed his rhythm, and asked, "Can you beat a 3-pattern?" A smile spread across my lips as well. I held his gaze steadily, mirrored him and said, "Yes." He put both hands in front of him, palms up, and shrugged gently as if to say "There you have it."
Yes, I will do this. And there will be no stopping me.
I talked to some friends... spent a little time with Dr. Hugo in his office.
And I have decided that I am going back to LU. Whatever it takes.
I think I'll try to get an on-campus job... if I work for admissions or recruting full-time, they'll pay for my tuition plus around 20K/yr. I'm going to do everything in my power to finish out school there. I will make this my goal, my obsession. I will be headstrong about this until I finish it. No more whining and complaining. Time to grow up and live life. I'm ready to do it. I feel empowered. I'm gonna fall flat on my face at some point, and be discouraged at other times, but that's when I need to read this and realize that people believe in me, that God is strong enough to handle this task, and that I am loved and supported. That's all I need to know. I am a young, vibrant, talented young lady with a decent support system of friends who encourage me from different angles (Dr. Hugo, Justin, Hilary, Lynda, and Rachel Q. are the ones I saw this week, plus Carrie and Dan over the weekend) and a lot of potential, not ot mention a Father who wants to see me succeed and help me make it happen. This is going to happen. This WILL happen. Say it like a mantra, like "Somewhere in Time": you WILL make this happen, your mind accepts this absolutely.
As Doc said this week: Music is something that I must do, or I will die. It is my passion and my reason for living. God is not enough of a reason to stay alive. Let's face it: if God were my reason for living, I'd kill myself, because I'd rather be in Heaven where I am closer to Him! Instead, it's His purpose that sustains me, that purpose being the passion I have for music and the desire to contribute to the world by helping to incorperate music into people's daily lives. I WILL do this. And God will sustain me in doing it.
I looked up the MW definition of a conductor. I liked two of them, apart from "the leader of a musical ensemble". This is interesting:
con·duc·tor (k&n-'d&k-t&r)
(1) : a material or object that permits an electric current to flow easily
(2) : a material capable of transmitting another form of energy (as heat or sound)
That's me. As Hugo said, I have the emotional part of conducting down, I am able to convey a concept to others in order to make them understand what I want to hear in response. That's something, he said, that most conductors have difficulty with. When I asked him about the technical ("Musical") side and what happens when I'm not proficiant at that, he beat his hand softly in the air and asked, "Can you conduct a 4-pattern?" I mimicked his actions and answered, "Yes." He smiled, changed his rhythm, and asked, "Can you beat a 3-pattern?" A smile spread across my lips as well. I held his gaze steadily, mirrored him and said, "Yes." He put both hands in front of him, palms up, and shrugged gently as if to say "There you have it."
Yes, I will do this. And there will be no stopping me.