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the word "friends" is so hard to understand for some reason. but dont worry i'm not giving anything up. and i'm trying my best here.
i do want to apolgize to the way we ended our conversation tonite. but i also hope you understand where i was comming form heh.
but thank you so much for talking with me.
tomorrow's talk better happen lol.
and i hope it goes much better than this one did.
and i hope you understand why i am so scared.
don't leave me like this... just not now...
i just dont think your interested anymore. no offense to you.
but i dont think you are. if you were, if you were in love with me, still thought about me, or anything of that nature, i think you would tell me.
but you haven't. not once. its nothing but wanting to be friends.
wich i can understand, but not much. you say your not looking but if something came up you would go for it. what am i supposed to think? or feel? i love you with all of my heart. and couldn't stand seeing you with someone else.
i am devoted to you.
i'm there for you no matter what.
i need your imput.
seriously..
i consider you one of my best friends
but i went from, love of your life, to best friend, to friend.
your falling away? i can see it.
i want to spend time with you, and regain everything we had. it took us a month to be friends before we went out. its been well over a month now, and nothing has changed. you still want to be friends.ok i get that.
nevermind, i mostlikely said something to piss someone off in this so i'm done. i dont need anyones shit right now.
just hopefully i get my talk with you tomorrow.
maybe we can talk alot more about these things, maybe you wont be busy? i guess i have to take that chance.
just don't get mad at me like you did tonite, just because i ask you to find some time to talk to me, without it being 15 minutes, or you being to busy...
you were never ever to busy for me before, so why now?
i dont see myself as being that important to you anymore. althought i wish i were.<3
i love you josh, dont ever forget it. lets make things better, be my friend, dont hurt me please, let me down easy if something does come up, its all i ask... thank you
i do want to apolgize to the way we ended our conversation tonite. but i also hope you understand where i was comming form heh.
but thank you so much for talking with me.
tomorrow's talk better happen lol.
and i hope it goes much better than this one did.
and i hope you understand why i am so scared.
don't leave me like this... just not now...
i just dont think your interested anymore. no offense to you.
but i dont think you are. if you were, if you were in love with me, still thought about me, or anything of that nature, i think you would tell me.
but you haven't. not once. its nothing but wanting to be friends.
wich i can understand, but not much. you say your not looking but if something came up you would go for it. what am i supposed to think? or feel? i love you with all of my heart. and couldn't stand seeing you with someone else.
i am devoted to you.
i'm there for you no matter what.
i need your imput.
seriously..
i consider you one of my best friends
but i went from, love of your life, to best friend, to friend.
your falling away? i can see it.
i want to spend time with you, and regain everything we had. it took us a month to be friends before we went out. its been well over a month now, and nothing has changed. you still want to be friends.ok i get that.
nevermind, i mostlikely said something to piss someone off in this so i'm done. i dont need anyones shit right now.
just hopefully i get my talk with you tomorrow.
maybe we can talk alot more about these things, maybe you wont be busy? i guess i have to take that chance.
just don't get mad at me like you did tonite, just because i ask you to find some time to talk to me, without it being 15 minutes, or you being to busy...
you were never ever to busy for me before, so why now?
i dont see myself as being that important to you anymore. althought i wish i were.<3
i love you josh, dont ever forget it. lets make things better, be my friend, dont hurt me please, let me down easy if something does come up, its all i ask... thank you