Jan 06, 2004 22:42
I felt pain before. cried aloud for all to hear. ive shed blood like water, and tears black as your heart. but ive never fallen to my knees. have come to truth, have seen hate for what you are. is why, is why my knees now bleed so fast. the cloth wont soak this time sweety. the blood will drip to your feet. i hope youre happy, oh i hope he fills that hole in your shriveled heart. love wont fucking kill this man. love isnt supposed to hurt this bad. youve given the pain youve thrived. all of my darkest fears lie in your eyes, the reflections of me bearing nothing. i wish that i was something, but your silenced words say im gone. my trying to pour out has been ignored. everything i once knew in a girl i loved has died with her anything for me, has died with your anything for us, mine for you. for say it is not true, tell me everything i die for will come back to me, all that makes me scream your name will rise again. seconds tick in hours when i wait for your voice to heal my ears, from the deafening words your lips expelled. i hope to wake to see the nightmare i wish not lived. peel back my eyelids for if this dream is true i never wish to sleep again, never wish to face your swords in hand dying to hollow the left of my chest. killing my every breath, a practice well learned by you and your days of pain, the days i slayed your love. this is where all went wrong, i lunged out to you only to stab myself in the heart. no pain can bear the loss of you.
-richard r. lester