Communication
So I have gone back to Ohio for a trip to be at my cousin's wedding, see friends and family, and just kind of look at my life and come back to my senses.
I have to say, I've been working on communication skills both internally with myself, but also with others. This trip has really pushed me to see the different lives I had before and who I am and was, and what I am now and the parts of me I've pushed away for whatever reason.
Seeing family has been nice, and same with friends that I can catch up with. Sadly, it also reminds me of many things I didn't like that I grew up with. I'm realizing that they way communication works with my family is less than great and in a way it felt a bit oppressive and opinionated. Putting it all together has managed to really drawn me to my limits lately. Who I've been in the past is something I should accept and align into my life for the good and the bad that it is, but the idea sounds easy but in practice is much harder.
I think it is all worth it as it has been a cleansing experience, but I really don't think this has been much of a vacation of getting away from things. Instead I'm getting into things more. I've also cried a lot and been open to say what I am feeling and thinking to people. So I'm starting to be more my true self and living authentically in line with my feelings. Not all the way there, but for what amount I am there it is pretty intense.
I've also noticed how I haven't paid nearly enough attention to the people and friends around me that really matter in my life. So I'm working to be better at it and I hope you'll all enjoy having me in your life as I improve. :)
I have to say, I've been working on communication skills both internally with myself, but also with others. This trip has really pushed me to see the different lives I had before and who I am and was, and what I am now and the parts of me I've pushed away for whatever reason.
Seeing family has been nice, and same with friends that I can catch up with. Sadly, it also reminds me of many things I didn't like that I grew up with. I'm realizing that they way communication works with my family is less than great and in a way it felt a bit oppressive and opinionated. Putting it all together has managed to really drawn me to my limits lately. Who I've been in the past is something I should accept and align into my life for the good and the bad that it is, but the idea sounds easy but in practice is much harder.
I think it is all worth it as it has been a cleansing experience, but I really don't think this has been much of a vacation of getting away from things. Instead I'm getting into things more. I've also cried a lot and been open to say what I am feeling and thinking to people. So I'm starting to be more my true self and living authentically in line with my feelings. Not all the way there, but for what amount I am there it is pretty intense.
I've also noticed how I haven't paid nearly enough attention to the people and friends around me that really matter in my life. So I'm working to be better at it and I hope you'll all enjoy having me in your life as I improve. :)