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Feeling frustrated and bored because it seems like all my friends have a ton of homework and I don't and I just want to hang out with them, especially because Mitchie is here and I want to see them. Last night I was really frustrated with feeling like I was being left out of the loop with what was going on (apparently nothing was going on). Currently feeling kind of resentful of Diana being in the living room, leading me and Amber to hang out in our rooms and no one to talk to each other (not that I super want to hang out in the living room with her because she will just keep talking and sometimes I'm just not in the mood, like for example a couple nights ago when I was very obviously trying to do my fucking homework and couldn't concentrate). I really wish the spare room was open and she could just stay there but also I keep not asking the RA to open it and apparently no one else is as bothered by it as I am, since I'm the one who keeps bringing it up. Also kind of resentful of her being here because otherwise Mitchie would probably be staying in Monagan, and also I feel like she might feel left out of all our friend shenanigans which will eventually happen this weekend (since she's kind of not invited I think). I think the situation with her and Mitchie is like with Rose and Adrian and in both cases it's unfortunate because it's like I don't want people to feel left out but also kind of don't want them to be there... I know it can't be helped and it's not her fault and she feels guilty for imposing but still I'm allowed to have feelings. I just don't have to share them with her, since that wouldn't help.