Present precedent
I scurry to find something meaningful, to find my place, and find myself chasing shadows. Overqualified, underqualified, or just wrong, my pursuits are met with dead-ends or lost trails. I wonder if I'll ever be able to support myself.
Three years with him. Every weekend is a battle to assert control, to assert our place; my Saturdays tend to end in tears. We seem to be so much better when we're away from each other. We are so different, yet similar where it hurts: stubborn, a bit selfish, probably overindulged as children; loyal, dedicated, honest, and I'm thisclose to taking a red, permanant marker to the sleeves of all my shirts, marking them with a big, fat heart. We fight every weekend and on the weekdays when we miss our weekend fights. And every time, we stay up and figure it out. We say our apologies and remember what is good and wonderful. We stay together.
I am so close to change I can feel the fissure beneath my feet, about to rupture and force me off of once more-stable ground. The world will never be the same after this, not for me. Not for us.
It's sort of exciting.
Three years with him. Every weekend is a battle to assert control, to assert our place; my Saturdays tend to end in tears. We seem to be so much better when we're away from each other. We are so different, yet similar where it hurts: stubborn, a bit selfish, probably overindulged as children; loyal, dedicated, honest, and I'm thisclose to taking a red, permanant marker to the sleeves of all my shirts, marking them with a big, fat heart. We fight every weekend and on the weekdays when we miss our weekend fights. And every time, we stay up and figure it out. We say our apologies and remember what is good and wonderful. We stay together.
I am so close to change I can feel the fissure beneath my feet, about to rupture and force me off of once more-stable ground. The world will never be the same after this, not for me. Not for us.
It's sort of exciting.