T: (ransgendered); (estosterone)
My name change will be legal in December.
I need to do this.
I need to do this now.
I've been waiting my whole life, I can't wait any longer. I can't put it off anymore because of my fear of what other people will do or think.
I'm calling Cindy tomorrow. I'm gonna just tell my dad -- I need to do this now. He can learn to accept it later. I can't live like this anymore. I just can't do it.
I want to be able to stop worrying about all this and just go on with my life. To be able to function in society, I need to be able to be seen by society as the boy that I am. I can't keep up this farce.
I'm sorry if it seems like I talk about this all the time. It's consuming me. I don't mean to sound self-centered. I don't want to have to talk about it so much anymore either. I don't want to have to angst and fight to qualify myself to the world. I just want to be.
I'm a boy -- I am a boy. I just want to live. Just like anyone else does.
I need to do this.
I need to do this now.
I've been waiting my whole life, I can't wait any longer. I can't put it off anymore because of my fear of what other people will do or think.
I'm calling Cindy tomorrow. I'm gonna just tell my dad -- I need to do this now. He can learn to accept it later. I can't live like this anymore. I just can't do it.
I want to be able to stop worrying about all this and just go on with my life. To be able to function in society, I need to be able to be seen by society as the boy that I am. I can't keep up this farce.
I'm sorry if it seems like I talk about this all the time. It's consuming me. I don't mean to sound self-centered. I don't want to have to talk about it so much anymore either. I don't want to have to angst and fight to qualify myself to the world. I just want to be.
I'm a boy -- I am a boy. I just want to live. Just like anyone else does.