It will get better with time
It’s been hard so far this week and I feel myself slipping. It’s so much easier to grab lunch in the cafeteria than to eat what I brought. It tastes better, it’s hot. I know it’s bad for me and I know it’s expensive, but it’s so hard to resist. I have been able to resist breakfast pretty well, though.
My aunt passed away Monday and being an emotional eater, I have had a difficult time. I know I am sad and scared that my loved ones are going to die one day. I know that food doesn’t make it better in the long run, but it’s comforting.
I have also been working 2 hours longer every day to be used as leave time later. I am trying to save up my 6 wks worth of leave in case we plan to start a family soon. It’s hard to believe I am so practical about some things, but not about my food choices and my health. But, working all this overtime, I am tired and I also have less time at night. I come home, cook dinner for an hour, tidy up, do some laundry, feed and play with the stray puppies we took in, and then it’s time for bed. I go to bed at 9pm (or try to) because I don’t sleep well and I also have to be up for 5am.
So let me think about my meals this week so far (not the snacks):
Monday- cheerios for breakfast, red bean and rice w/ sausage from cafeteria for lunch, chocolate chip cookie ice cream, and lasagna (my hubby’s mom made) for dinner.
Tuesday- 2 toaster strudels, crawfish etouffee, and a party pizza w/ salad.
Wednesday- 2 toaster strudels so far… I WILL eat the lunch I brought to work today…..
I also think today will start my TOM, so I am cranky and also bloaty too. =( All the more reason to drink my water and do yoga!