People come, people go....
I just realized that today marks a year since I've had any communication whatsoever with Ben.
How truly bizarre. He used to be the center of everything, and now it's been a year since I've had anything at all to do with him. And I almost didn't even notice the fact.
Which is not to say he's disappeared. On the contrary - I would say that rarely a day goes by where he doesn't enter my mind for some reason or another. I mean, someone and something that is that huge a part of one's life for that long doesn't just disappear. The days are just much fewer and farther between when I actually dwell on him (although they do still occur occasionally).
But the fact that though he's not absent from my mind, he has been completely absent from my life for a year, after he used to be so important to my every day existence for so long - that's just hard to comprehend.
I have no idea what to feel right now. Relieved? Sad? Nostalgic? Free?
Or nothing at all?
All I can say is that when it all started, I never in a million years would have thought it ever would have come to this.
And that's really all the reflection on the occasion I can muster up at the moment.
How truly bizarre. He used to be the center of everything, and now it's been a year since I've had anything at all to do with him. And I almost didn't even notice the fact.
Which is not to say he's disappeared. On the contrary - I would say that rarely a day goes by where he doesn't enter my mind for some reason or another. I mean, someone and something that is that huge a part of one's life for that long doesn't just disappear. The days are just much fewer and farther between when I actually dwell on him (although they do still occur occasionally).
But the fact that though he's not absent from my mind, he has been completely absent from my life for a year, after he used to be so important to my every day existence for so long - that's just hard to comprehend.
I have no idea what to feel right now. Relieved? Sad? Nostalgic? Free?
Or nothing at all?
All I can say is that when it all started, I never in a million years would have thought it ever would have come to this.
And that's really all the reflection on the occasion I can muster up at the moment.