Fear and Pride
Fear and Pride..
I guess those are the 2 things that I let get the best of me. But tonight, for the frist and not the last.. I believed in myself. I swallowed my pride and ice skated around the rink not only once but twice. with people that care about me. YAY! ( You all do care about me.. but you weren't here to witness this) All thanks to Andrea. I really had a bad attitude about it early on in the evening because I contemplated shoud I or should I not, I was also scared, and the BIGGEST thing was my fear. But after 5 minutes.. I looked the devil in his face and told him that I am going to face this challenge and NOT let you (him)get the best out of me. In time, I did have both Andrea and Sister Lori push/drag me out there and I did it. I'm glad that I did and "didn't let life pass me by and not sitting on the sidelines of my life". No one could have said it better than Sister Lori. If it wasn't for Andrea and Sister Lori pushing/dragging me like that I was allowing the dvil to win, and letting myslef down too. By letting myself down that would have lowered my self - esteem and worth and that would have made it LOWER than it already is now. I'm glad that Andrea pushed my limits and forced my inner strengths to shine on the outside. You got to love people like that that can show you are something if you put your mind to it and have your beack, heart, and believe in you. (not if you don't already... most of you know who you are) I wish that I had the reast of my family seen what I've done tonight. Now, I know that I can do it and I believe in myself and I can do anything if I put my mind to it. From here on out I promise not to take everything to heart and learn to listen to my heart and believe in me more often. I really have learned a lot from tonight's experience. I really did enjoy myself and actually for the first time I felt happy and confident in myslef even though it has been a real LONG time. Next step/goal is my confidence in driving by myself. But I am sure I'll just do fine.. considering what a night I had. I'm ready to conquer anything that God throws at me.
I guess those are the 2 things that I let get the best of me. But tonight, for the frist and not the last.. I believed in myself. I swallowed my pride and ice skated around the rink not only once but twice. with people that care about me. YAY! ( You all do care about me.. but you weren't here to witness this) All thanks to Andrea. I really had a bad attitude about it early on in the evening because I contemplated shoud I or should I not, I was also scared, and the BIGGEST thing was my fear. But after 5 minutes.. I looked the devil in his face and told him that I am going to face this challenge and NOT let you (him)get the best out of me. In time, I did have both Andrea and Sister Lori push/drag me out there and I did it. I'm glad that I did and "didn't let life pass me by and not sitting on the sidelines of my life". No one could have said it better than Sister Lori. If it wasn't for Andrea and Sister Lori pushing/dragging me like that I was allowing the dvil to win, and letting myslef down too. By letting myself down that would have lowered my self - esteem and worth and that would have made it LOWER than it already is now. I'm glad that Andrea pushed my limits and forced my inner strengths to shine on the outside. You got to love people like that that can show you are something if you put your mind to it and have your beack, heart, and believe in you. (not if you don't already... most of you know who you are) I wish that I had the reast of my family seen what I've done tonight. Now, I know that I can do it and I believe in myself and I can do anything if I put my mind to it. From here on out I promise not to take everything to heart and learn to listen to my heart and believe in me more often. I really have learned a lot from tonight's experience. I really did enjoy myself and actually for the first time I felt happy and confident in myslef even though it has been a real LONG time. Next step/goal is my confidence in driving by myself. But I am sure I'll just do fine.. considering what a night I had. I'm ready to conquer anything that God throws at me.