Mehh

[ashxattackx33]

I feel like I only use this in the summer when I have time to update. Not a lot has happened. I've been doing a lottt of partying..not a lot of school work. That's senior year for you. I feel like I spend more time at work than I do in school and more time out getting fucked up than I do asleep so life has been a bit trying on me. I broke up with my boyfriend..a while ago. After almost a year and half together it was a bit traumatic. I just couldn't deal with it anymore. I loved him but so much happened between us it was never going to be the same. Like towards the end I didn't feel any love, just jealousy and craziness. He used the family locator on my phone to fucking find out where I was..on several occasions. He recently told my mom he got a new girlfriend and then told her not to tell me. This whole time he's been trying to get me back and shit. The fact that he's with someone else gave me this very weird feeling. I think I said this before but it's like donating an old sweater that you've had forever and just don't want anymore and then seeing someone else wear it. It's not that I want it back I just feel weird having someone else wear my old clothes. It also pisses me off that he would intentionally keep something like that from me. After all the shit he talks about trust and this that and the other. I don't know if I even want anything to do with him anymore. It just hurts too much to be involved with him in anyway. All the old problems just replay over and over in my head and it sucks. But idk. I'm just excited for this year to be over so I can leave here and go to school. I got into Salem State University. I'm a sociology major. excitingggggggg.
Yeah I need to go pick up my check so I guess I'll try and update at another time.