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[ashnaln]

Why's it gotta be so complicated? I have what I want...but if this is true then why does it hurt?...my heart is breaking, and i can't stop it....what the fuck is wrong with me........I feel like I'm screaming and the only person who notices can't help me......and so in turn, I push them away....

I just want to know what's suppose to be, so that i can make it what is....