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We have my sister's baby shower scheduled for September 26th @ 2:00. Only problem is we don't have a place to have it. The guest list is at about 25 people, give or take, and all those people are NOT going to fit in our apartment, so our apartment is out. We decided to ask the co-manager of the apartments, who happens to be an old family friend, if we could use the community center in the Villas but she said people from the front couldn't use it but she'd check with the manager and get back to us. She never did, so that's a no go. (The Villas are little houses in the back of the apartment complex for old people, BTW.) Then I asked Ashley if maybe we could have it at her church, where her sister had her baby shower/ Sierra's first bday party, but then I realized September 26th is a Sunday so church will be going on. And sure, church gets out at 11-12 but it could run over and people linger afterward, which would interfere since we'll have to be there at least by 1 to set up and people could possibly still be there. Our fourth option and basically out last resort was to have it at a nice park, but Mom-Mom doesn't like that idea because, "what if it's cold or windy or it rains?"
So. I really don't know what to freaking do. We don't really have the money to put out to rent a hall and even if we did IDK any places we could rent out, anyway. The shower is less than a month away and we don't have anywhere to hold it and invitations haven't even been sent out! We'd like to get them out on Monday and have people RSVP by the 19th, a week before the shower. But...you know, if we can't find a place before Monday we won't be able to get the invites out until later. It's very stressful. >:|
Oh, I told my mom that living here is like living with parents who don't get along/are getting divorced/separated/whatever. I told her I'd like to go to counseling just so I can have someone to talk to. I need someone who I can rant to and express my feelings to who will offer me their opinion and advice but won't be biased or get angry or hurt about anything I say. I think counseling will do me some good. And it's not just about what's going on in the house and how NO ONE in this house is happy or can be pleased or get along. It's also about...me needing help with myself. Sometimes I feel like a big fat failure because I haven't done anything with my life. I have issues that need to be worked on, too, like feeling guilty about things I shouldn't feel guilty about and getting angry about stupid shit. So, it's not just about home/family life. It's about me, too. I'm gonna call People's Place Monday and see if I can get in there. Last time I tried counseling I went there, set up two appointments, and forget about them both so they wouldn't see me. Hopefully it's been long enough since that time that I'll be able to get back in there. If not I guess I'll have to ask my doctor for a referral or something.
And speaking of doctors, I have a consultation with a surgeon for my toe on Thursday. I'm a little nervous because foot surgery means I won't be able to drive and I'm going to have to rely on other people to do stuff for me. Like, make my plate at dinnertime. Because I'm not going to be able to walk. I'm going to hate it. But I know I need it. My podiatrist said if I'm still having pain it's worth talking to a surgeon about. So...we'll see.