r rated heavy language used
I understand that it is after 2 am in the morning and here i am online ranting, but you have to understand that when you go to a party where there is drinking people should not try to stick their noses into other peoples business. I normally dont mind people giving advice on random things however i dont like being called out in public at a party where i really dont know anyone mind you about sexual things. What happens in the bedroom is suppose to stay in the bedroom. Telling other people how i dont like to give blow jobs is not my idea of fun. I prefer not to be letured on how i am suppose to take care of my man. IF he is not happy with me then he should say so himself instead of giving me a ring and then having one of his friends say something to me at a party. Considering the fact that we had this discusion before we stared dating about why i am not completely sex driven. And considering the fact that for the past 7 months you have been supposedly fine with everything and happy with me pisses me off. Just because a girl doesnt give the guy a blow job every time he wants it if at all does not mean she is fucking around. If you are so insecure with the relationship to even think so then maybe there is a problem with the guy not the girl. HE says he wants to make a life with me but at the same time he wants to say that if i dont start giving him head then more than likely i am fucking around. Just shows me how much trust there is on his part. You think he would take in account that i left my hometown the one place where i am have felt safe and where i had a secure living area with close friends to come hundreds of miles away to an area i am unfamilar with and where i know nobody. An area mind you that is so far away from my grandpa and brother that i now dont get to see them at all when before at least i could make the trip to tn twice a year. What he really needs to keep in mind is that If i was going to cheat on him i would have stayed in nc rather than move way the hell out here. Secondly there is only so much i am going to take before i say fuck it all to hell and pack my stuff back into my car and make my way to tn. Atleast i know that if i need to i can go stay with my grandpa long enough for me to save up money for my own place. BEcause if he cant fucking trust me over something so damn stupid to begin with then there is no point in me being here in the first place.