Why I've been gone/Life problems/Hopeful for future!

[ashlilyneko]

Like I said I was gonna make this a cut in my SSS thing but it got too long so I'm just gonna post it on here since... well blogging is what they actually made this website for at some point, right? haha

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[vulpyx]

hey there! I'm sorry to hear you've had such a hard time lately D: I absolutely resonate with what you're saying, about a decade ago now things started to get bad, my sister had mental health problems to the extent that she was hospitalized, which in turn effected my parents' health. I was only about 9 or 10 when this started so my way of coping was to basically pretend it wasn't happening and I kind of...emotionally shut down.

Fast-foward to 2012 and my sister was getting better, but I was a mess. I'd become an anxious wreck; I was always ill, I hurt all over, I had multiple panic attacks on a daily basis and they got so bad that one day I had one that basically lasted 6 hours. I started medication which helped a bit but at this time I was friends with someone who was emotionally abusive so the medication could only do so much and I was still basically a mess. This went on for a couple of years until I left school in 2014 and cut the 'friend' out of my life, but that was when I started collecting (both pokemon and disney merch.) My health was still very bad but collecting stuff brought little moments of happiness to me when very little did. And it still does to be honest which is why I guess I carried it on. I was diagnosed with a chronic illness a year ago which explains why I'm constantly in pain and I still struggle with my mental health, it's not as bad as it was but its still present.

So yeah, I think starting to collect can be quite common for people with mental health problems. Everyone has their own coping mechanisms and I'm of the opinion that if it makes the person happy and doesn't hurt them or anyone else, its a good thing ^^ I honestly feel like Pokemon got me through some of the hardest points of my life!

It's nice in a way to find someone on here that has similar experiences when it comes to collecting!! I really hope things get better for you, you're super strong <3 I hope you don't mind my blabbing haaah :'D