Transported...
Well, my life has been officially transported to Houston. They packed the house last monday and tuesday and Noah and I flew down here on Weds. David and my brother had the lovely task of driving our cars down here and made it in one piece. Whenever anyone asks (usually my mom) I say I like it but I'm not sure yet. I've felt myself slipping into a kind of down state of mind. I don't want to say I'm depressed, because I don't feel like I'm there yet and I'm very reluctant to say I'm depressed...ever. I don't want to be "look at me, I'm so sad, I'm depressed" because I know people who are really there and I guess I just never see myself that...bad (not that being depressed makes you a bad person). I just remember how hard it was for me when I moved to Toledo. I cried for months over not making any good friends there...and it really took me two years to get through my prereq's and get into nursing classes to make GOOD friends. I don't want that... I don't want to wait two years to find friends. I know I have David and I have Noah, but I really need an outlet...a way to feel like more than David's wife and Noah's mom. I want to offer everything I have to someone in friendship. I feel like I am a really good friend and I love talking to people, offering advice, doing girlie things, getting to really know someone. I love knowing someone so well that they're comfortable calling or coming over and crying on my shoulder. I love helping people.
I still haven't decided if I'm going back to work. In order to do that I would have to find childcare. Daycares, by law, can't share cribs because of risk of germs and the such so you have to pay for a whole week/month even if they're only going to be there once a week. We can't afford that. It would negate any money I would make working once-twice a week. Also, I still need to get my nursing license transferred which is $200.00 and I have to go get finger-printed. We'll see I guess.
Well, I've got one more box to unpack in the kitchen and then its done! YAY! Now only 4 rooms to go... OY. Love you all and still read up on you guys daily. I've never been one to post much but since I'm in my funk I'm even more unlikely...except this post. lol