MY BABY IS BACK!= MICHAEL is back!
First of all....my Michael is back! Im shocked im not in bed, but im just so happy that my baby is back that i cant sleep. Ill get to Michael's coming back in a bit or you can skip this paragraph. Well first Ive learned alot of things, and i never understood what mr. marquis was saying to me untill today. Ive realized....there is NO WAY i can help my dad with the way he acts, that he is rasied that way. THis will tie into things in a bit. Well Mr. and Mrs. loveless picked me up at like 6 to go to a baseball game with them. I loved it! They are sweet people, and i tried to be as helpful as possible, i hope they like me. And on the way to the airport to pick up my man, i realized that Michael is so blessed to have a family that will actually go out with each other, and do stuff together even if they are ever mad at eachother. My family is the opposite, and i noticed tha tmy dad never hung out with anyone when he was little and he was so dedicated to studying, that thats how he wants me to be, and doesnt really think i should be in a "hanging out""family time" enviorment. So i decided to be nice to him from now on. Im trying. And wehn i thought about how blessed Michael is, i began to tear. I wish i had a family like his.
NOW to the BEST part. Waited at the airport and almost fell asleep but forced myself to keep awake, and was so anxious to see my baby. And when i got to see him it put a big smile on my face. Omg i love him. He got some pretty cool stuff from morroco. Like his banana shoes. Haha...they are cool. He also got 2 drums, which is neat and so him, since he is my band geek. And a whole bunch of people came up to me that i didnt know and was like Ashley! Im thinking "who the heck are you?" THey did htat cuz Michael talked about me alot on his trip at morroco. I felt quite special. Im pretty sure i came across mean towards Michale, i didnt mean to be. I meant to only joke. Michael also got these cool pottery type stuff that is really cool. He also gave me an awesome key while he has the heart with a lock looking thing on it, and a ring. Hes watching me. I love them both. I alos love how he uses symbolism for the key and heart. I only figured out one side to it tho. I only know he always tells me I have the key to his heart. I dont get the other part tho. I need his help with that. when i got home at like 12:30, i jumped on my moms bed and showed her the stuff and i just got a lot of energy right hten. I could actually see how pretty the stuff was that he gave me when i was in the light, cuz he gave me them in the car, and i was just so out of it, yet so excited to see him. Odd combo right? Hes not exactly happy with the moment. And truely it is my fault and its okay for him to be not too happy with me. Hes being cool about it though, and i understand. Hes a real good guy to put up with me, and im lucky/blessed. Im trying not to take things for granted as much as i used to. Ive done that alot with Michael. Also since he was gone, i noticed i can take talking to him for granted too. He called me tonight we talked, I understand him. Theres alot of things that happen that i could do in a sitution and should do right hten instead of when its too late. I take his advice for granted which yes this is true. He told me how he held some orphan babys at the orphanage in morroco, itd be cool if i could go. He also told me he fed 3 year olds. Hes such a good use to society and such and really caring. I adore him,and he makes me say "WOW...thats my honey right there". Im going to try not to take things for granted. I know i am very blessed to have Michael and to actually have a dad. I really owe Michael big time. Hes been truely a wonderful person in my life.
i talked to krista, she pointed out that im not like most teens, and i asked why? SHe said most teens choose not to do anything at all and she said shes one of those, and she said that i also can think deeply into something and understand, and once i understand, i grasp it. i told her about how i noticed i take michael for granted and that my dad cant help the way he is. She said that most "normal teens" would just be rebellic and such but you think and most "normal teens" would look upon you as weird for all that. She said im maturing, and that im growing up too quick and majorly surpassing her in maturity. haha she says im like her mom. I actually do find this to be good news. I can also thank Michael for helping to correct me at some things in behavior.
NOW to the BEST part. Waited at the airport and almost fell asleep but forced myself to keep awake, and was so anxious to see my baby. And when i got to see him it put a big smile on my face. Omg i love him. He got some pretty cool stuff from morroco. Like his banana shoes. Haha...they are cool. He also got 2 drums, which is neat and so him, since he is my band geek. And a whole bunch of people came up to me that i didnt know and was like Ashley! Im thinking "who the heck are you?" THey did htat cuz Michael talked about me alot on his trip at morroco. I felt quite special. Im pretty sure i came across mean towards Michale, i didnt mean to be. I meant to only joke. Michael also got these cool pottery type stuff that is really cool. He also gave me an awesome key while he has the heart with a lock looking thing on it, and a ring. Hes watching me. I love them both. I alos love how he uses symbolism for the key and heart. I only figured out one side to it tho. I only know he always tells me I have the key to his heart. I dont get the other part tho. I need his help with that. when i got home at like 12:30, i jumped on my moms bed and showed her the stuff and i just got a lot of energy right hten. I could actually see how pretty the stuff was that he gave me when i was in the light, cuz he gave me them in the car, and i was just so out of it, yet so excited to see him. Odd combo right? Hes not exactly happy with the moment. And truely it is my fault and its okay for him to be not too happy with me. Hes being cool about it though, and i understand. Hes a real good guy to put up with me, and im lucky/blessed. Im trying not to take things for granted as much as i used to. Ive done that alot with Michael. Also since he was gone, i noticed i can take talking to him for granted too. He called me tonight we talked, I understand him. Theres alot of things that happen that i could do in a sitution and should do right hten instead of when its too late. I take his advice for granted which yes this is true. He told me how he held some orphan babys at the orphanage in morroco, itd be cool if i could go. He also told me he fed 3 year olds. Hes such a good use to society and such and really caring. I adore him,and he makes me say "WOW...thats my honey right there". Im going to try not to take things for granted. I know i am very blessed to have Michael and to actually have a dad. I really owe Michael big time. Hes been truely a wonderful person in my life.
i talked to krista, she pointed out that im not like most teens, and i asked why? SHe said most teens choose not to do anything at all and she said shes one of those, and she said that i also can think deeply into something and understand, and once i understand, i grasp it. i told her about how i noticed i take michael for granted and that my dad cant help the way he is. She said that most "normal teens" would just be rebellic and such but you think and most "normal teens" would look upon you as weird for all that. She said im maturing, and that im growing up too quick and majorly surpassing her in maturity. haha she says im like her mom. I actually do find this to be good news. I can also thank Michael for helping to correct me at some things in behavior.