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[ashleydillo]

I'm currently stuck in the middle. I have no reason to stay, yet I have no reason to leave. There are no benefits to moving away from this place, nor are there any to staying. I know what I want but it is all a matter of luck and circumstance and I think I've run out of luck for my lifetime

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[itshardtosay]

Maybe you've just been keeping yourself in the same world for too long. Perhaps you've given up the opportunities to shift the basic matter of what consists in your life, on a very basic and emotional (but real) level, that everything hasn't been given the chance to breathe and grow. You've been slowly developing, evolving into something more than what you were when your world was first created, and now you've outgrown the necessity for it. In a world where you may have had some level of comfort, you've found that, instead of solidarity, there is a division (perhaps dissolution?) of where you were once before, and where you are now, and it can no longer provide you the things you are (a) used to, and (b) used to want/need.

It just sounds like it's you're time to slough off an old shell, the creation of youth, and make time enough to create a newer world for the person you are now, not who you were when you were 16, 17, or even 20. Make it reason enough to be spontaneous, experience in a different way, do something extreme, or you know... start over. We have so many opportunities allowed us in life to just start over fresh, and it doesn't have to be because we're running away from(or towards) anything. It can be that it's just time.

[phicksur]

I must concur. I have known you (ashley) now for over 10 years, and in that time I have watched you develop and grow and you really really need to get out of your parents house and prove to yourself that you can live on your own, by your own means, and make your own path.

I do not doubt you can make it, the problem is you convincing yourself.