Every light in the house is on...
The last couple of days have been crazy wicked. I MISSED REGAN AT CHURCH AGAIN THIS MORNING!
Whew...I missed myself at church. I went to Sunday school, but I just slept in the youth room during "big church".
Work...a double. Then I went to see the Stepford Wives. It was a good movie.
Ok, so my flirtatiousness has ruined the potential for a wonderful relationship. I don't know where my life is headed in the relationship department. I don't need one...I keep tellin' myself that at least. But I just can't let the feeling go that I've passed up something wonderful...not that I "passed it up" per se, it passed me by.
**Begin Seriousness** I don't think I'm at all who I appear to be. There are millions of thoughts that run through my mind that would change my life if I said them out loud. I'm tired of being used by some that I love more than anything in this world. I won't allow it anymore. My new friend Lea Saunders said to me today, "I could NEVER see you being shy." But I so often am... Sometimes I wonder who really knows me...if even know myself. **End Seriousness**
I'm a confused/confusing soul.
Man, it's only 12:30...compared to the past couple of nights...going to bed now seems to equal my bed time in kindergarten or something. But nonetheless, I'm about to hit the sack. Tomorrow is Ashley-Grandma day...well, mostly. I'm getting up eary early early to go get breakfast with her, and then she's gotta go to the nursing home and do her great aunt's hair while I sleep and get some sun...then filling out orientation crap for State, and (marking her words), "we're gonna do whatever you (me) want to do!" S-H-O-P.
I love the summer, but I can't wait to jump into State next year. I feel like it's gonna be wonderful. I have all the opportunities to make new friends and basically start all over, while taking a few people from my past that mean a lot to me with me. Amy & Brooke will be right next door at Peace. Makes me happy inside.
Welpo, I'm headed to bed.
I miss and love everyone soooo sooooooo very much.
Erin, you are my shining star!
~ <3 Ash
Song to describe the day: Something about the way you look tonight...there's just something about you. I miss you...
Whew...I missed myself at church. I went to Sunday school, but I just slept in the youth room during "big church".
Work...a double. Then I went to see the Stepford Wives. It was a good movie.
Ok, so my flirtatiousness has ruined the potential for a wonderful relationship. I don't know where my life is headed in the relationship department. I don't need one...I keep tellin' myself that at least. But I just can't let the feeling go that I've passed up something wonderful...not that I "passed it up" per se, it passed me by.
**Begin Seriousness** I don't think I'm at all who I appear to be. There are millions of thoughts that run through my mind that would change my life if I said them out loud. I'm tired of being used by some that I love more than anything in this world. I won't allow it anymore. My new friend Lea Saunders said to me today, "I could NEVER see you being shy." But I so often am... Sometimes I wonder who really knows me...if even know myself. **End Seriousness**
I'm a confused/confusing soul.
Man, it's only 12:30...compared to the past couple of nights...going to bed now seems to equal my bed time in kindergarten or something. But nonetheless, I'm about to hit the sack. Tomorrow is Ashley-Grandma day...well, mostly. I'm getting up eary early early to go get breakfast with her, and then she's gotta go to the nursing home and do her great aunt's hair while I sleep and get some sun...then filling out orientation crap for State, and (marking her words), "we're gonna do whatever you (me) want to do!" S-H-O-P.
I love the summer, but I can't wait to jump into State next year. I feel like it's gonna be wonderful. I have all the opportunities to make new friends and basically start all over, while taking a few people from my past that mean a lot to me with me. Amy & Brooke will be right next door at Peace. Makes me happy inside.
Welpo, I'm headed to bed.
I miss and love everyone soooo sooooooo very much.
Erin, you are my shining star!
~ <3 Ash
Song to describe the day: Something about the way you look tonight...there's just something about you. I miss you...