:'(
"So, I mean, maybe would should date around...You seem to want to date someone else, and I guess I need to..."
Tears...buckets.
So, I guess I was lookin forward to Todd coming to get me to spend the evening together, but I called him when he was 5 mins. late, and he informed me he wasn't coming b/c it's too hot, and his car doesn't have air conditioning. I lied to him and told him I had something else to do anyway, but I was really hurt. I hate today...in all it's Drew Carey-ness, and TBS-Superstation excitement. The highlight of my night: My grandparents are leaving me alone, and I'm going to watch What Women Want at 8pm on TBS.
I guess I'm upset b/c I look so nice. ...in a new outfit, and coordinated jewelry and shoes...I curled my hair...I'm tan...and now I'm depressed. I'm gonna lay in bed all night and sulk, thinking about how bad my life is...when it isn't really. There's nothing worse than unnecessary depression.
Grandma heard me talkin on the phone to Todd and saw me crying, and she asked what I was doing Monday, and I told her work at 5...she said well, until 5pm, it's "me & you time". This cheered me up some. Unlike a lotta teenagers, I love family time, especially with grandma...but it still hurts. I miss my friends.
I hate being ready for nothing. All of my driving friends are either working or just don't wanna come see me, I guess.
Ick...I'm shutting up.
~ <3 Ash
If you're reading this...I wanna be with you.
Tears...buckets.
So, I guess I was lookin forward to Todd coming to get me to spend the evening together, but I called him when he was 5 mins. late, and he informed me he wasn't coming b/c it's too hot, and his car doesn't have air conditioning. I lied to him and told him I had something else to do anyway, but I was really hurt. I hate today...in all it's Drew Carey-ness, and TBS-Superstation excitement. The highlight of my night: My grandparents are leaving me alone, and I'm going to watch What Women Want at 8pm on TBS.
I guess I'm upset b/c I look so nice. ...in a new outfit, and coordinated jewelry and shoes...I curled my hair...I'm tan...and now I'm depressed. I'm gonna lay in bed all night and sulk, thinking about how bad my life is...when it isn't really. There's nothing worse than unnecessary depression.
Grandma heard me talkin on the phone to Todd and saw me crying, and she asked what I was doing Monday, and I told her work at 5...she said well, until 5pm, it's "me & you time". This cheered me up some. Unlike a lotta teenagers, I love family time, especially with grandma...but it still hurts. I miss my friends.
I hate being ready for nothing. All of my driving friends are either working or just don't wanna come see me, I guess.
Ick...I'm shutting up.
~ <3 Ash
If you're reading this...I wanna be with you.