Chatting with the ex
I'm talking to my ex-boyfriend on Google Talk right now. I rarely use IM things, but I was signed into my Gmail (which I also rarely use) and the chat box popped up with an IM from him. This is only the second time we've talked since we broke up. We talked on Facebook once, and now on Google. Good ol' internet.
It feels kind of weird to talk to him. I'm over him, but still not over his family haha. I miss him as a person, but I'm over him as a boyfriend, if that makes sense. I don't really know how else to describe it. I know he isn't right for me, and I'm done with being the one who's always more committed in relationships anyway. So I don't even want to be with him. But I do miss spending time with him and his family. I miss hanging out with his friends, too. Even though I wouldn't want to get back together with him, I still think hanging out would be awkward. So we'll just be internet buddies who chat on occasion haha. I miss his mom and her new husband! I wish I could just go hang out with them haha.
He did say one thing that kinda touched my heart a little bit, or made me smile, at least. He asked if I bought the Lion King DVD/Blu-Ray, because he said he thought of me when he saw that it came out. I thought that was kinda sweet. He and his family know that I'm a huge Disney nerd. So it was kind of touching to know that he still thinks of me sometimes, and that certain things remind him of me. I guess it makes me feel good to know that I still matter. I don't know.
The best part about us breaking up, aside from a relationship that wasn't right coming to an end? I don't have to move to Baltimore next year! :-P
It really is nice to talk to him and joke around. Like I said, it's kinda weird, but nice. He was my best friend for the year that we were together, and losing that aspect of the relationship was really hard. I mean, a relationship ending is always hard, but it sucks when you lose your boyfriend and your best friend at the same time (since he was one and the same). I suppose a good way to explain things is that I don't miss having him as a boyfriend, but I do miss having him as a friend. I still want us to remain strictly chat buddies though. No intention of going beyond that. But casual conversation is nice.
If I'm not making sense or I'm all over the place or whatever, I'm sorry. I write even more informally when I'm super tired, haha. You might be surprised...I'm actually a good writer when I need to be. But this is LJ. Whatever. Here I can just type more like I talk.
Perhaps a nap would be a good idea, since I stayed up all night last night. Hmmm...
It feels kind of weird to talk to him. I'm over him, but still not over his family haha. I miss him as a person, but I'm over him as a boyfriend, if that makes sense. I don't really know how else to describe it. I know he isn't right for me, and I'm done with being the one who's always more committed in relationships anyway. So I don't even want to be with him. But I do miss spending time with him and his family. I miss hanging out with his friends, too. Even though I wouldn't want to get back together with him, I still think hanging out would be awkward. So we'll just be internet buddies who chat on occasion haha. I miss his mom and her new husband! I wish I could just go hang out with them haha.
He did say one thing that kinda touched my heart a little bit, or made me smile, at least. He asked if I bought the Lion King DVD/Blu-Ray, because he said he thought of me when he saw that it came out. I thought that was kinda sweet. He and his family know that I'm a huge Disney nerd. So it was kind of touching to know that he still thinks of me sometimes, and that certain things remind him of me. I guess it makes me feel good to know that I still matter. I don't know.
The best part about us breaking up, aside from a relationship that wasn't right coming to an end? I don't have to move to Baltimore next year! :-P
It really is nice to talk to him and joke around. Like I said, it's kinda weird, but nice. He was my best friend for the year that we were together, and losing that aspect of the relationship was really hard. I mean, a relationship ending is always hard, but it sucks when you lose your boyfriend and your best friend at the same time (since he was one and the same). I suppose a good way to explain things is that I don't miss having him as a boyfriend, but I do miss having him as a friend. I still want us to remain strictly chat buddies though. No intention of going beyond that. But casual conversation is nice.
If I'm not making sense or I'm all over the place or whatever, I'm sorry. I write even more informally when I'm super tired, haha. You might be surprised...I'm actually a good writer when I need to be. But this is LJ. Whatever. Here I can just type more like I talk.
Perhaps a nap would be a good idea, since I stayed up all night last night. Hmmm...