just leave these illusions behind
i officially cannot and will not deal w/ people who piss me off by coming to me with worthless problems when they don't want my help. if you want help, i am *always* going to be here to listen and give you advice because i want to be an awesome friend to you and i don't want to see you hurt in anyway... but when you don't take my advice and then screw yourself over, don't come back to me saying how you effed up. geez. i won't even say 'i told you so'. you'd think people could change and take a hint but apparently not. anyways, i'm fed up & finished w/ that segment of this post.
i've realized i'm really lucky. even though stuff doesn't always turned out the way i plan i need patience to get through it, which i sometimes don't have but i'm slowly working on it. i'm lucky to have some people who will always be there for me to lift me up(not that i'm down now or anything right just for the record) and i'd like to thank them for always making me feel like the most special person ever. you all rock!!! i also want to thank people for pointing out times when it seems like i'm falling and i don't realize it. you open my eyes to help me get my faith back in things. i know what i'm saying may seem kinda stupid b/c i probably just sound like a silly little girl but i've never taken the time to say anything to these people and i feel that everyone needs to know how great of a friend they are to others-no matter what. you should always tell people how much they mean to you because you never know what will happen. i listened to this song the other day about this wife who got in an accident and the night before she had gotten mad at her husband for something silly and she didn't say "i love you" when they went to bed. the next day she got in an accident and was in the hospital in shock trauma and what was racing through her mind was "knowing i love you was not the last thing she said"(lyrics). eventually, her husband gets to the hospital and the nurse brings him in and they're both crying and she says she's sorry for getting mad at him for something petty and tells him she loves him and then she dies. i almost cried bc i realized i never thank people enough for what they do for me and i need to do that a lot more, and actually appreciate people and not get mad about stupid stuff, even though it seems like a huge thing @ the time. motto: "suck it up" lol jk.
anyways, i think i'm done being all thought-provoking and touchy and whatnot. time to go to work:-/ 5:30-close on a friday night...boo.
-later:]
"so you're walking on the edge and you wait your turn to fall
but you're so far gone that you don't see the hands up held to catch you
and you could find the fault in the heart that you've been handed
but though you cannot fly you're not content to crawl
and it's always too late when you've got nothing so you say
but you should never let the sunset on tomorrow
before the sun rises today.....
i will never leave you i will not let you down."
^my all-time favorite lyrics^
-nine days
i've realized i'm really lucky. even though stuff doesn't always turned out the way i plan i need patience to get through it, which i sometimes don't have but i'm slowly working on it. i'm lucky to have some people who will always be there for me to lift me up(not that i'm down now or anything right just for the record) and i'd like to thank them for always making me feel like the most special person ever. you all rock!!! i also want to thank people for pointing out times when it seems like i'm falling and i don't realize it. you open my eyes to help me get my faith back in things. i know what i'm saying may seem kinda stupid b/c i probably just sound like a silly little girl but i've never taken the time to say anything to these people and i feel that everyone needs to know how great of a friend they are to others-no matter what. you should always tell people how much they mean to you because you never know what will happen. i listened to this song the other day about this wife who got in an accident and the night before she had gotten mad at her husband for something silly and she didn't say "i love you" when they went to bed. the next day she got in an accident and was in the hospital in shock trauma and what was racing through her mind was "knowing i love you was not the last thing she said"(lyrics). eventually, her husband gets to the hospital and the nurse brings him in and they're both crying and she says she's sorry for getting mad at him for something petty and tells him she loves him and then she dies. i almost cried bc i realized i never thank people enough for what they do for me and i need to do that a lot more, and actually appreciate people and not get mad about stupid stuff, even though it seems like a huge thing @ the time. motto: "suck it up" lol jk.
anyways, i think i'm done being all thought-provoking and touchy and whatnot. time to go to work:-/ 5:30-close on a friday night...boo.
-later:]
"so you're walking on the edge and you wait your turn to fall
but you're so far gone that you don't see the hands up held to catch you
and you could find the fault in the heart that you've been handed
but though you cannot fly you're not content to crawl
and it's always too late when you've got nothing so you say
but you should never let the sunset on tomorrow
before the sun rises today.....
i will never leave you i will not let you down."
^my all-time favorite lyrics^
-nine days