Aug 09, 2004 13:29
Have you ever felt mixed up and confused?
Not just in your thoughts and misunderstandings,
but actually have your heart mixed with your soul,
your mind and thoughts, confused with reality?
Have you ever thought you loved someone, with your heart
but hated them with your soul? Liked them with your mind, and dispised them in all reality?
Have you ever hated logic, and tuned into your emotions?
Ever made a decision based on your feelings, which feels right, but makes no sense at all?
Has anyone ever told you something wasn't rational, or logical, even explained the consequences, and still you carry it out?
Have you ever loved in vain? Had someone love you in vain?
When your fear mixes with your affections, and locks the key to the wall around your heart.
Have you ever wanted to die, ever thought about it, and smiled? Ever begged your maker to ensure that you don't wake in the morning? Have you ever cried to the point of hysterics? Ever hated yourself to the point of self-destruction? Have you ever tried to sit and write about exactly what it is you are feeling? ....I have.