Year-end survey
I have done this every year for the past 10 years, so I may as well do it. It’s interesting to read them over on Livejournal to see how I’ve changed through the years: http://ashleigh919.livejournal.com/tag/year-end
1. What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?
- I turned 30.
- I moved back to New York voluntarily.
- I lived in a state for the third time in my life.
- I live in Westchester County.
- I take both a commuter train and the subway to work.
- I work downtown, in the financial district.
- I work as an attorney, but not at an accounting firm, but I still don’t practice law.
- I had my heart broken like I’ve never had it broken before.
- Because of said heart being broken, I no longer believe in love, G-d, or Judaism. At least I know I won’t ever allow my heart to be broken again.
- I’ve been learning German.
- My job search got so desperate that I considered moving out of the country.
- I have lost pretty much every single one of my friends.
- I have lost ¼ of my body weight…and pretty much no one has noticed or ever made a comment. FUCK ALL OF YOU.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make New Year's resolutions. No one keeps them anyway. (This is the same answer every year, I think.)
However, I will make a resolution this year - never trust a word anyone says, ever again.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, too many people..
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Only my soul.
5. What countries did you visit?
None.
6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
Stability and a sense that someone will overcome rumors and come back to me. ß- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH this pertained to a certain someone in 2012 who, in 2013, started rumors about me and pushed away a lot of people, including someone I loved very much.
7. What date from 2013 will remain etched upon you memory, and why?
March 25
April 25
May 5
May 21
June 23
July 5
July 14
September 23
Various dates in November and December
All for personal reasons.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Bravery about taking on a gigantic risk with my career and succeeding and making something of myself in an area that is incredibly difficult to make a mark, succeed, or even get hired in the first place.
9. What was your biggest failure?
D.I.P., without a doubt. I hate that people did what they did to me to cause this mess, and I will never know the truth, never be able to show the truth from either my side or the others’ side, and that it seems like it is beyond repair at this point because no one gives a fuck about me, cares, or will listen to me.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Major injury to my heart, metabolic disorder, and a worsening of the lump in my right knee which led to a few days where I was literally unable to walk.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Hmm, there were so many things, and I just got a new cell phone, which is weird, since it doesn’t have a physical keyboard. I have bought so much clothing recently because of a lot of changes. We have a new puppy (“puppy” being used liberally since she’s 2 years old because she was a stray.), so there are fun things to buy for her. I want to buy back my belief in things, but that’s just not happening.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Probably the one friend who has stuck by me through everything and who puts up with my literal crying through this every single day, especially since she knows one of the players involved. I don’t know what I’d do without her. Okay, well there’s someone else who has stuck by me too who also knows him but the first person knows him better.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Oh this is easy - the people who did this to me should rot. I don’t want them to “die and go to hell” as many people would say. I’d rather they live and suffer. People who actually plan things out like this (and don’t say you didn’t) and set others up for failure because they only care about their own motives, are out for revenge, or other bullshit, rather than accepting other people’s happiness have something seriously wrong with them and are the crazy ones. The people that experience the subsequent pain and grieve because of it and are just trying to find out answers are just going through that - a grieving process so shut the fuck up and fuck up your own lives, not others’.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent, moving, mass transit, taxes.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
There's a new person in my life that I WAS very excited about, but someone seems to have ruined that in an effort to exact revenge. I will hopefully prevail. ß I wrote this last year, and it was going great for months and then I got stabbed in the back. THANKS.
I love my job though, and while that’s the one thing that I have left in my life, I guess it will have to suffice.
16. What song will always remind you of 2013?
The first one that comes to mind is Mumford & Sons - I Will Wait ß this stays from last year. I will wait forever.
Pink - Just Give Me a Reason
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. Happier or sadder? Sadder. Very, very, sad. Hurt, upset, dismayed, you name it, I’m feeling it.
II. Thinner or fatter? Much, much, much, much thinner. Again, not like anyone has noticed or said anything, to the point that I have to fucking point it out to people, and they say, “oh, I didn’t notice.” How the fuck do you not notice?
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I knew how to be mean or give people a taste of their own medicine. I wish I knew how to do harm to others. I wish I could exact revenge on you the way you were out to get revenge on me for things I never did, because, oh do I have evidence on some of you to do things that could very much harm you, but that’s just not me.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Crying, trying to prove that I am worth something, trying to defeat bullying, which is something no one should have to endure at age 29. ß- I said this last year, and since I was 29 for ¾ of 2013, I guess this still applies.
I’ll also add that I wish I spent less time searching for a job, though I had that all wrapped up by April. I wish that I didn’t have to fight for my relationship, but it was fighting others, and then it all snowballed in the end. Now I’m still fighting for answers, answers I can’t get, and now I’m still being blamed for something I didn’t do, and I’ve been blocked when I didn’t even do anything! Un-fucking-believable when we were talking, and he’s here, and I just want to see and talk to him and this is my chance. I just want to cry.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I was here in New York. I volunteered at the Y in Washington Heights by serving food to the elderly. I went to the movies for once (gasp, right?) and saw American Hustle, and then I grabbed some Wo Hop. I had my heart broken again outside, too, because of something I didn’t do, ironically on the anniversary of the day my heart took a leap, not 10 feet from where it all began. Lovely.
21. Did you fall in love in 2013?
For once, yes, but because people have their agendas, it’s all ruined. Yes, there’s a theme here. Yes, I’m angry. No, I don’t give a shit what others think. I’m allowed to be angry, considering how I’ve been put through the ringer with all of this and how I’m STILL suffering the consequences of all of this and it’s still coming back to bite me in the ass weekly/daily.
22. How many one-night stands?
Zero hero!
23. What was your favorite TV program?
How I Met Your Mother, Good Wife, Modern Family, the news, 60 Minutes. Once again, I'm keeping last year's answer. Hmm...
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't hate anyone. I would say that disappointment is the better term to use. ß that’s what I usually put, and I’m really not one to hate, but I strongly dislike someone who really was a close friend of mine, well, two people who were, and others who were friends. One claims he was just an “acquaintance,” but I have so much that proves otherwise, despite what he tells others. I can’t hate anyone because it just wouldn’t be me being true to myself, but then again I’m a shell of what I used to be, so I guess that doesn’t matter anyway.
25. What was the best book you read?
Hmm, so many, and I’ve been re-reading a lot of my old Soviet/Eastern European books from my minor in college, but it’s not like that matters now, anyway.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I didn’t make any discoveries this year.
27. What did you want and get?
A job.
I wanted respect, and I got repaid with less than that. ß I said this last year, and it still rings true. There’s just one thing I want, and it’s so simple, a 15-minute conversation. Why is that so much to ask, after I gave so much? I know I’ll never get what I really want and deserve , restoration of what we had, but I at least deserve an answer, to know what the hell happened, why this was done to me. I was so kind to everyone, always said yes when asked for help, did so much for everyone, dedicated 50% of my day every day to doing work for people, and this is what I get in return? What is the point anymore, seriously?
28. What did you want and not get?
A chance at something new and different, to change my belief that I no longer believe in love, being a good person, treating others well and/or the way you want to be treated or anything like that. ß I’ll keep this.
I just want to be appreciated for once. Can someone say “thank you” to me for once? Can someone not ruin it when I’m in love for the first time in years and years? I guess not.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
I honestly did not go to the movies once in 2013 until a few days ago.
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 30 on Thursday, September 19. I thought last year was the worst birthday of my life, but wow was I wrong. This year was by far the worst birthday of my life, and your 30th birthday is supposed to be amazing. I have no friends left. I had to cancel my blow-out party because I had no one left to invite. I was banned from another party a week before, when originally I was also talking with those people about maybe having a triple 30th birthday party, especially since we know a lot of the same people. I was bad-mouthed at that party just a week before my birthday. I didn’t plan anything for my birthday this year and no one cared. I didn’t get any presents. I worked on my birthday for the first time in my life, because it was my 2nd-to-last day as a contractor before becoming permanent, and it was too late to take it off and it would have been unpaid anyway. The person who was going to go to dinner with me bailed at the last minute. The restaurant I tried to go to closed early. I found another person to go to dinner with me, and then someone whom I thought I was my friend said something nice to me when he joined us as well, but in reality, he is also one of the aforementioned back-stabbers as well. I didn’t even get more than 2 cards for my birthday, either. My family didn’t remember my birthday. Four days after my birthday, my family celebrated my cousin’s wife’s birthday 7 days early, gave her a cake with candles and fanfare and ignored my birthday and screamed when my birthday was mentioned and said “Ashleigh’s name will NOT go on the cake!” My family really treats me like dirt. Then people wonder why I rely on my friends…well when I used to have friends, that is. I will never try to celebrate or acknowledge my birthday again after this disaster this year.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Easy - if my life hadn't completely fallen apart then I wouldn't be falling apart right now. Also, if someone took responsibility for his own actions rather than blaming others, then my heart wouldn't be absolutely broken right now because the beginning of something seems to have ended due to someone's inconsiderate nature.
^Oh look, last year’s answer fits perfectly with this year’s sentiment, except it’s not the beginning of something anymore. I was well into it, head-over-heels in love, certain long-term things discussed, etc. Fuck me. Well, they sure did, alright.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
More refined, trying to find more prints, no stripes, as few solids as possible, pieces to last years to come.
33. What kept you sane?
For the first half of the year, knowing that I had someone that I loved, despite not having a job to go to every day kept me waking up every morning. The time difference actually worked because he was going to work as I was going to bed, and I would wake up to messages, e-mails, etc. every single day, and I felt loved, special, wanted, etc. If I had a bad day, he would always make me laugh. If I didn’t get a job I really wanted or didn’t hear back, he would make me feel better or tell me a story about his own, similar job search a few years ago, because we have the same degrees and finished law school in the same year, but I finished my LL.M. a year before him. But once the shit hit the fan, so-to-speak, and I was sabotaged, there is nothing at all keeping me on the ground and there is certainly nothing keeping me sane. Since no one will go to bat for me and no one will help me and ask for the one thing that I know will get me over the hump, so to speak, I am literally driving myself crazy, especially now, knowing he’s been here since Tuesday night. L
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I pay no attention to celebrities.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Why have we been talking about the 2016 election when the 2012 election just finished? I am especially heated over pre-tax transit elections right now and how the Republicans fucked over those with mass transit elections. I am paying attention to things in Ukraine, Russia, Moldova, Georgia, and the EU, because adding Eastern European nations that need significant aid to the EU will have a world impact. The US pledging aid to Moldova will also be interesting. Russia making threats also has a worldwide impact. I also have very strong opinions on US immigration issues, student loans, etc. Other than that, I am very, very, very liberal, but I have qualms about immigration as the child of an immigrant who gets no benefits or special status because I am white.
36. Who did you miss?
Easy. Duh.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
I didn’t meet anyone new, but I got to know someone so well and love him so much, and he changed me for the better, made me flourish, and I am thankful for that…until it was ripped out from under me. I had never been happier.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.
Don't trust anyone, don't believe in love, don't believe that people have goodness inside of them, there is no life in darkness.
^So true from last year. Nothing good can come from falling in love or trusting people, ever. Just don’t even try, ever. Just go to work, get a paycheck, pay off interest on student loans, pay taxes on what is forgiven, work some more, then die. The end.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Pink - “Just Give Me a Reason”
Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, oh
Things you never say to me, oh, oh
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh, we had everything)
1. What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?
- I turned 30.
- I moved back to New York voluntarily.
- I lived in a state for the third time in my life.
- I live in Westchester County.
- I take both a commuter train and the subway to work.
- I work downtown, in the financial district.
- I work as an attorney, but not at an accounting firm, but I still don’t practice law.
- I had my heart broken like I’ve never had it broken before.
- Because of said heart being broken, I no longer believe in love, G-d, or Judaism. At least I know I won’t ever allow my heart to be broken again.
- I’ve been learning German.
- My job search got so desperate that I considered moving out of the country.
- I have lost pretty much every single one of my friends.
- I have lost ¼ of my body weight…and pretty much no one has noticed or ever made a comment. FUCK ALL OF YOU.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make New Year's resolutions. No one keeps them anyway. (This is the same answer every year, I think.)
However, I will make a resolution this year - never trust a word anyone says, ever again.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, too many people..
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Only my soul.
5. What countries did you visit?
None.
6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
Stability and a sense that someone will overcome rumors and come back to me. ß- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH this pertained to a certain someone in 2012 who, in 2013, started rumors about me and pushed away a lot of people, including someone I loved very much.
7. What date from 2013 will remain etched upon you memory, and why?
March 25
April 25
May 5
May 21
June 23
July 5
July 14
September 23
Various dates in November and December
All for personal reasons.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Bravery about taking on a gigantic risk with my career and succeeding and making something of myself in an area that is incredibly difficult to make a mark, succeed, or even get hired in the first place.
9. What was your biggest failure?
D.I.P., without a doubt. I hate that people did what they did to me to cause this mess, and I will never know the truth, never be able to show the truth from either my side or the others’ side, and that it seems like it is beyond repair at this point because no one gives a fuck about me, cares, or will listen to me.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Major injury to my heart, metabolic disorder, and a worsening of the lump in my right knee which led to a few days where I was literally unable to walk.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Hmm, there were so many things, and I just got a new cell phone, which is weird, since it doesn’t have a physical keyboard. I have bought so much clothing recently because of a lot of changes. We have a new puppy (“puppy” being used liberally since she’s 2 years old because she was a stray.), so there are fun things to buy for her. I want to buy back my belief in things, but that’s just not happening.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Probably the one friend who has stuck by me through everything and who puts up with my literal crying through this every single day, especially since she knows one of the players involved. I don’t know what I’d do without her. Okay, well there’s someone else who has stuck by me too who also knows him but the first person knows him better.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Oh this is easy - the people who did this to me should rot. I don’t want them to “die and go to hell” as many people would say. I’d rather they live and suffer. People who actually plan things out like this (and don’t say you didn’t) and set others up for failure because they only care about their own motives, are out for revenge, or other bullshit, rather than accepting other people’s happiness have something seriously wrong with them and are the crazy ones. The people that experience the subsequent pain and grieve because of it and are just trying to find out answers are just going through that - a grieving process so shut the fuck up and fuck up your own lives, not others’.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent, moving, mass transit, taxes.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
There's a new person in my life that I WAS very excited about, but someone seems to have ruined that in an effort to exact revenge. I will hopefully prevail. ß I wrote this last year, and it was going great for months and then I got stabbed in the back. THANKS.
I love my job though, and while that’s the one thing that I have left in my life, I guess it will have to suffice.
16. What song will always remind you of 2013?
The first one that comes to mind is Mumford & Sons - I Will Wait ß this stays from last year. I will wait forever.
Pink - Just Give Me a Reason
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
I. Happier or sadder? Sadder. Very, very, sad. Hurt, upset, dismayed, you name it, I’m feeling it.
II. Thinner or fatter? Much, much, much, much thinner. Again, not like anyone has noticed or said anything, to the point that I have to fucking point it out to people, and they say, “oh, I didn’t notice.” How the fuck do you not notice?
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I knew how to be mean or give people a taste of their own medicine. I wish I knew how to do harm to others. I wish I could exact revenge on you the way you were out to get revenge on me for things I never did, because, oh do I have evidence on some of you to do things that could very much harm you, but that’s just not me.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Crying, trying to prove that I am worth something, trying to defeat bullying, which is something no one should have to endure at age 29. ß- I said this last year, and since I was 29 for ¾ of 2013, I guess this still applies.
I’ll also add that I wish I spent less time searching for a job, though I had that all wrapped up by April. I wish that I didn’t have to fight for my relationship, but it was fighting others, and then it all snowballed in the end. Now I’m still fighting for answers, answers I can’t get, and now I’m still being blamed for something I didn’t do, and I’ve been blocked when I didn’t even do anything! Un-fucking-believable when we were talking, and he’s here, and I just want to see and talk to him and this is my chance. I just want to cry.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I was here in New York. I volunteered at the Y in Washington Heights by serving food to the elderly. I went to the movies for once (gasp, right?) and saw American Hustle, and then I grabbed some Wo Hop. I had my heart broken again outside, too, because of something I didn’t do, ironically on the anniversary of the day my heart took a leap, not 10 feet from where it all began. Lovely.
21. Did you fall in love in 2013?
For once, yes, but because people have their agendas, it’s all ruined. Yes, there’s a theme here. Yes, I’m angry. No, I don’t give a shit what others think. I’m allowed to be angry, considering how I’ve been put through the ringer with all of this and how I’m STILL suffering the consequences of all of this and it’s still coming back to bite me in the ass weekly/daily.
22. How many one-night stands?
Zero hero!
23. What was your favorite TV program?
How I Met Your Mother, Good Wife, Modern Family, the news, 60 Minutes. Once again, I'm keeping last year's answer. Hmm...
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't hate anyone. I would say that disappointment is the better term to use. ß that’s what I usually put, and I’m really not one to hate, but I strongly dislike someone who really was a close friend of mine, well, two people who were, and others who were friends. One claims he was just an “acquaintance,” but I have so much that proves otherwise, despite what he tells others. I can’t hate anyone because it just wouldn’t be me being true to myself, but then again I’m a shell of what I used to be, so I guess that doesn’t matter anyway.
25. What was the best book you read?
Hmm, so many, and I’ve been re-reading a lot of my old Soviet/Eastern European books from my minor in college, but it’s not like that matters now, anyway.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I didn’t make any discoveries this year.
27. What did you want and get?
A job.
I wanted respect, and I got repaid with less than that. ß I said this last year, and it still rings true. There’s just one thing I want, and it’s so simple, a 15-minute conversation. Why is that so much to ask, after I gave so much? I know I’ll never get what I really want and deserve , restoration of what we had, but I at least deserve an answer, to know what the hell happened, why this was done to me. I was so kind to everyone, always said yes when asked for help, did so much for everyone, dedicated 50% of my day every day to doing work for people, and this is what I get in return? What is the point anymore, seriously?
28. What did you want and not get?
A chance at something new and different, to change my belief that I no longer believe in love, being a good person, treating others well and/or the way you want to be treated or anything like that. ß I’ll keep this.
I just want to be appreciated for once. Can someone say “thank you” to me for once? Can someone not ruin it when I’m in love for the first time in years and years? I guess not.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
I honestly did not go to the movies once in 2013 until a few days ago.
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 30 on Thursday, September 19. I thought last year was the worst birthday of my life, but wow was I wrong. This year was by far the worst birthday of my life, and your 30th birthday is supposed to be amazing. I have no friends left. I had to cancel my blow-out party because I had no one left to invite. I was banned from another party a week before, when originally I was also talking with those people about maybe having a triple 30th birthday party, especially since we know a lot of the same people. I was bad-mouthed at that party just a week before my birthday. I didn’t plan anything for my birthday this year and no one cared. I didn’t get any presents. I worked on my birthday for the first time in my life, because it was my 2nd-to-last day as a contractor before becoming permanent, and it was too late to take it off and it would have been unpaid anyway. The person who was going to go to dinner with me bailed at the last minute. The restaurant I tried to go to closed early. I found another person to go to dinner with me, and then someone whom I thought I was my friend said something nice to me when he joined us as well, but in reality, he is also one of the aforementioned back-stabbers as well. I didn’t even get more than 2 cards for my birthday, either. My family didn’t remember my birthday. Four days after my birthday, my family celebrated my cousin’s wife’s birthday 7 days early, gave her a cake with candles and fanfare and ignored my birthday and screamed when my birthday was mentioned and said “Ashleigh’s name will NOT go on the cake!” My family really treats me like dirt. Then people wonder why I rely on my friends…well when I used to have friends, that is. I will never try to celebrate or acknowledge my birthday again after this disaster this year.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Easy - if my life hadn't completely fallen apart then I wouldn't be falling apart right now. Also, if someone took responsibility for his own actions rather than blaming others, then my heart wouldn't be absolutely broken right now because the beginning of something seems to have ended due to someone's inconsiderate nature.
^Oh look, last year’s answer fits perfectly with this year’s sentiment, except it’s not the beginning of something anymore. I was well into it, head-over-heels in love, certain long-term things discussed, etc. Fuck me. Well, they sure did, alright.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
More refined, trying to find more prints, no stripes, as few solids as possible, pieces to last years to come.
33. What kept you sane?
For the first half of the year, knowing that I had someone that I loved, despite not having a job to go to every day kept me waking up every morning. The time difference actually worked because he was going to work as I was going to bed, and I would wake up to messages, e-mails, etc. every single day, and I felt loved, special, wanted, etc. If I had a bad day, he would always make me laugh. If I didn’t get a job I really wanted or didn’t hear back, he would make me feel better or tell me a story about his own, similar job search a few years ago, because we have the same degrees and finished law school in the same year, but I finished my LL.M. a year before him. But once the shit hit the fan, so-to-speak, and I was sabotaged, there is nothing at all keeping me on the ground and there is certainly nothing keeping me sane. Since no one will go to bat for me and no one will help me and ask for the one thing that I know will get me over the hump, so to speak, I am literally driving myself crazy, especially now, knowing he’s been here since Tuesday night. L
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I pay no attention to celebrities.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Why have we been talking about the 2016 election when the 2012 election just finished? I am especially heated over pre-tax transit elections right now and how the Republicans fucked over those with mass transit elections. I am paying attention to things in Ukraine, Russia, Moldova, Georgia, and the EU, because adding Eastern European nations that need significant aid to the EU will have a world impact. The US pledging aid to Moldova will also be interesting. Russia making threats also has a worldwide impact. I also have very strong opinions on US immigration issues, student loans, etc. Other than that, I am very, very, very liberal, but I have qualms about immigration as the child of an immigrant who gets no benefits or special status because I am white.
36. Who did you miss?
Easy. Duh.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
I didn’t meet anyone new, but I got to know someone so well and love him so much, and he changed me for the better, made me flourish, and I am thankful for that…until it was ripped out from under me. I had never been happier.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.
Don't trust anyone, don't believe in love, don't believe that people have goodness inside of them, there is no life in darkness.
^So true from last year. Nothing good can come from falling in love or trusting people, ever. Just don’t even try, ever. Just go to work, get a paycheck, pay off interest on student loans, pay taxes on what is forgiven, work some more, then die. The end.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Pink - “Just Give Me a Reason”
Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, oh
Things you never say to me, oh, oh
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh, we had everything)