A scary thought...

[ashkash]

I've been evaluating things in my life (as you can tell by my previous post, I'm bored and have a lot of time on my hands), and I've realized something. I miss being in a relationship. Today, for some reason, Steve popped into my head. As different as we are now...and I mean "different"...it was great for what it was. I felt completely safe,

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[katchus]

Welcome to my life darling. Tej always yells at me cos she says I purposely find flaws in guys and if he says the wrong thing or looks at me the wrong way I stop liking him and it's true! I don't know why I'm this way (well that's only partially true) or what to do about it either...just one of those fucked up things.

I really wish I could give you SOME sort of advice, or solace, but sadly for both you and I, I can't! Just hold comfort in the fact that you found it once, you can find it again. It doesn't have to be as hard as we make it...

[ashkash]

I know. I can't figure out if the flaws are because I'm afraid of committment, or because they're just really annoying flaws. It's just hard to stay positive! I went from being a complete hopeless romantic who believed in soul mates and other shit like that, to wondering if I'll ever even find someone I love enough to marry. It pissed me off. Man, ignorance IS bliss, and there ARE someone experiences that I would trade in.