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1. So I'm most likely starting at the community college on September 22. I only feel like a failure a little bit ( Read more... )

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bacchae23 August 24 2008, 03:24:19 UTC
Class of '08 here bopped around a giant floaty toy, if that comforts you any. I think it was a dragon, or something...

You know, I know a lot of people going to a community college, and the more and more I think about it, there is quite a lot of practicality. Sure, it's not as regal as some out-of-state place, but it's a lot cheaper, and after two years you can fly the coop and haul ass somewhere else.

Don't worry about it. :) Really.

Hopefully you have no diseases or ailments. I wish you the best of luck.

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ashirabe August 26 2008, 09:18:30 UTC
Thank you. I mean it.

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rein_kun August 24 2008, 22:50:19 UTC
Okay, Ashi, let me be quite frank with you for a moment. Not insulting - just frank ( ... )

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ashirabe August 25 2008, 18:35:46 UTC
1. There is no pride involved in the matter: there's only the fact that I am a perfectionist and when I'm not included in something that is seemingly important and worthy of admiration--including but not limited to: a well-known university--I feel unworthy of any sort of praise, accomplishments, or even the right to be proud.

2. I really didn't and don't care. I was making fun of it. Sorry it didn't come across as that, but I guess with me it's easy to confuse satire with bitching.

3. RIGHT NOW my initial reaction is "Yeah, I know, see, that's why I'm a failure" because as you would see from my most recent entry, I am not in a very self-loving mood.

But if I take a step back, you know, I can understand what you're saying. BUT AT THE SAME TIME I HATE IT when I tell someone I don't like something, and they say "Change it."

Change it. Change it. Like it's so goddamn easy. Like I didn't even fucking try in the first place. You know, my conviction is not at it's highest when I say this, because I am so self-critical, but I have been ( ... )

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ashirabe August 25 2008, 18:37:51 UTC
Also, I am never mad at people who are honest with me.

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