WOW
I haven't written in this thing in over a year. You probably all deleted me and wont be reading my post, oh well! i just need to vent anyways so you dont have to read it :)
I think i must be one of the stupidest girls in the world. I dont know why i love him so much, but i do i just cant help it. I let him put me though so much crap and i cry and cry for days and then i take him back. Last time it was 3 months that we were apart, and i became happy, i moved on, i stopped thinking about him. Then one day he contacted me and wanted to get together...... Of course how could i resist?? Hes going though one of his things right now, one of the things were everything i do bugs him and im an inconvenience, we havent seen each other and BARELY talked to each other since Saturday night. He told me he needed a break for a week... WELL JESUS! Hes up at UMF hanging out with his friends whom i love, but among them are some girls who i dont know very well and think might have triggered this reaction. God Damn it my heart feels like to has been pulled out of my chest and stomped on repeatedly. how many more times can i go though this before i just break down completely? i dont know... all i know is that i still love him, i care about him so much... and when it comes down to it i am completely clueless..
Oh Happy Thanksgiving everyone...
I think i must be one of the stupidest girls in the world. I dont know why i love him so much, but i do i just cant help it. I let him put me though so much crap and i cry and cry for days and then i take him back. Last time it was 3 months that we were apart, and i became happy, i moved on, i stopped thinking about him. Then one day he contacted me and wanted to get together...... Of course how could i resist?? Hes going though one of his things right now, one of the things were everything i do bugs him and im an inconvenience, we havent seen each other and BARELY talked to each other since Saturday night. He told me he needed a break for a week... WELL JESUS! Hes up at UMF hanging out with his friends whom i love, but among them are some girls who i dont know very well and think might have triggered this reaction. God Damn it my heart feels like to has been pulled out of my chest and stomped on repeatedly. how many more times can i go though this before i just break down completely? i dont know... all i know is that i still love him, i care about him so much... and when it comes down to it i am completely clueless..
Oh Happy Thanksgiving everyone...