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[ash_mac04]

as I look back at this past week, it is just so hard to believe...I am just taken aback by all of my memories with Mr. Clay Priebe...the little shit...i loved him though...he was like my little brother. He and Greg used to get into so much trouble together...but all they would do was walk around with the biggest smile on their faces laughing their asses off...they always thought being in trouble was hillarious! There were a few times when they were so scared that they would get in trouble..or get busted at a party...and here i'd come to pick them up to save their asses again...it's just so hard to see a friend go...it sort of makes you ask yourself all sorts of questions of wondering why? what happened...what was he thinking...did he actually need help but was too scared to ask?...or was it just an accident?...Just the lucky one to go?...it just makes me want more answers...like leaving a sentence open-ended...and it's like i have to force myself to leave it that way....i just feel for all his boys...they took it so hard...and it was so hard for me to see all of them so upset...but i know he was smiling down on every single one of 'em for bein there to support him...and i know he was to see how many people were there for him...he packed a full house and then some...i think he'd prolly say he's the shit...
sad times are so hard...but we must hang in there...we will meet again soon...

"I'd like the memory of me to be a Happy one,
I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when day is done.
I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways,
Of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days.
I'd like the tears of those who grieve to dry befor the sun,
of happy memories that I leave when life is done."

Enuff.