...just one of those days...
I will have to admit that I was extremely disappointed this past weekend...I was so excited to go back home friday night that I just couldn't wait...as if that's my place of comfort because I know where I am, and almost everyone around me...just my place to call home...but when I got there..it was nothing but a huge disaster...I found that my brother (who is my best friend) and one of his friends (who also means the world to me) are both in some trouble...I don't know what caused it all...but I know they are both struggling through an extremely hard time in their lives...the sad thing is..it's almost as if they don't know how to pull through...or if they even want to make things better...so I'm stuck...I don't want to see either of them fail at anything in their lives..nor do I want them to have these horrible reputations...but I'm too late...It's so hard because I can't just pick them up and make it better...and my brother who means the world to me...he's always there to save me when I'm down...and well he hates to let me down, or dissapoint me...but I'm scared for him...and I don't know what to do...
...with that...I will have to say I am determined to make things better...and I know that I can...although I am very disappointed in crawfordsville...it's so dumb! It's almost like I can't believe I ever lived there...just little things like the fact that Crawfordsville Basketball is now not a very popular thing to high school students there now...I mean all my years in high school...the stands were packed...i mean PACKED...and we had the PIT my senior year...and now...no one goes...and it's almost like the parents don't even go anymore...its sad...it used to be a huge part of Crawfordsville High School, and now it's as if they don't care...but hey '04 did run that!! and as usual everyone there talks about everyone else...its rather annoying, and I mean I guess I should be used to it, but sometimes people just need to shut their mouths...it makes things worse...and people that I thought were my friends...really aren't...I went back home and called up a few old friends...and it just seemed that they didnt want anything to do with me...it kind of hurt my feelings...but some people just aren't worth my time anymore...I've grown up...matured more...and I'm ready for the world...all I have to say is...I'M GLAD I'M GONE!...enuff!
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...with that...I will have to say I am determined to make things better...and I know that I can...although I am very disappointed in crawfordsville...it's so dumb! It's almost like I can't believe I ever lived there...just little things like the fact that Crawfordsville Basketball is now not a very popular thing to high school students there now...I mean all my years in high school...the stands were packed...i mean PACKED...and we had the PIT my senior year...and now...no one goes...and it's almost like the parents don't even go anymore...its sad...it used to be a huge part of Crawfordsville High School, and now it's as if they don't care...but hey '04 did run that!! and as usual everyone there talks about everyone else...its rather annoying, and I mean I guess I should be used to it, but sometimes people just need to shut their mouths...it makes things worse...and people that I thought were my friends...really aren't...I went back home and called up a few old friends...and it just seemed that they didnt want anything to do with me...it kind of hurt my feelings...but some people just aren't worth my time anymore...I've grown up...matured more...and I'm ready for the world...all I have to say is...I'M GLAD I'M GONE!...enuff!
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