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Well I dk what to do anymore. I guess I seriously have 5 friends and you think i'm kiddin? well i'm not. I dk if i should call him. I don't want it to end like this it seems like everytime I get in a "relationship" it ends like this and i just don't want this one to. I want to call him but I dk what to say. He apparently doesn't understand y I didn't go friday but everyone else does. Anything could've happened. Yeah I am sick of the "good" girl that always does everything right I would like to just do something bad for once I just don't want to die while doing it. You might think I'm making this up but w/e screw you but i'm not. The night b/4 i had a dream about dying. I just remember everyone putting a slide show together of my pics and stuff like that. I dk anything could've happened but honestly if I could take it back I would've went. I dk. But anyways... All state tryouts are sunday and I kinda don't want to tryout but I guess I will. I dk what to do. I feel like if I don't then everyone will be "disappointed in me" but I'm seriously not going to make it so I dk what the point in puttin all the time into it is. I dk. All fest is in 2 wks i think or something like that and I don't want to go to it anymore either but i guess i will just b/c. I feel so anti-social b/c I don't like anyone. It's like once someone does something to me I really don't want anything to do w/ them anymore. I know that's horrible but I can't help it. hmm anyways. I think I'm done updating now.
-ashley-
-ashley-